FarRy TaLes

Mode: Separation Anxiety

2012-02-01T22:07:00.000-08:00

I'm currently home alone.

Today is Iman and Ranya's second day in "skool". After much discussion with Lan, my mum and the twins second main day caretaker which is my dad :p We've decided that the girls would be going to the same daycare as Ryan.

I'm planning on an extended no-pay 30 days maternity leave, which I have no idea whether it has been approve yet ;p if it is indeed approve (pray to Allah that it will) I'm planning to rotate taking care of each child alone with me a week. For example : Monday with Iman, Wednesday with Ranya and Friday with Ryan. So each kid will have quality time with mummy.

Lan and I are slowly getting the groove of being a parent of 3 children. The main challenge is trying to meet the needs of Iman and Ranya while making sure that Ryan does not feel left out. Sometimes I feel really horrible because I know that no matter how Lan and I try to be the best parents to our kids something will still fall short.

The best example I can give you is this, Iman HATES to be bottle fed be it EBM or formula so when I'm with her she will insist on direct feeding, which really sucks for Ranya because she will have less time with me. I'm lucky that my youngest baby is quite understanding as she will drink milk from the bottle with less fuss, however there are times when Ranya needs attention the same time when I'm tending to Iman. The worst part is if they only want comfort from ME despite having 3-5 other adults at home, so one starts crying and the other will start screaming too. When all this is happening, sometimes I admit Ryan will be sidelined since everyone aim is to make sure that the twins will stop crying. so that is when the 3rd tantrum from Ryan will start. So i end making all 3 unhappy, which is kinda depressing if you think about it

I do try not to dwell on things I can't change. My main aim is to give my children the best and going all bipolar about things will not help anyone. Of course there's going to be shortcomings on my part, I expect a lot of things to get harder before things get easier : triple expenses, triple pain and sufferings, triple fever and sleepless nights, triple snot sucking, triple bedtime tantrums etc but at the same time I've been blessed with three gorgeous kids who can made my day with their smiles, incoherent gurgles and the most adorable antics.

When things get really tough and I think I can't go on, I try to remind myself that Allah will not test someone beyond their capabilities and when I was in Mecca I remember ending each prayer for Allah to give me what he thinks is best for me even if that is not what I initially wanted, so if my creator have given me the very best, who am I to question his faith in me. Anyway, nothing that is truly worth it comes easy,right?

Ok since tengah mode jiwang (or more like separation anxiety) I would like to dedicate this para from the song Sedetik Lebih to my 3 munckins. For some reason everytime I listen to the song it totally reminded me of them...

"Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu
Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa
Kasihku ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya"

My Heartbeat :)

2012-01-22T07:29:00.000-08:00

My Little Angels :)

Ryan Turns TWO :)

2012-01-18T06:44:00.000-08:00

Date: 20 December 2011
Occasion: Ryan's 2nd Birthday

We didn't do much on Ryan's birthday this year since mummy was just one week into her pantang at that time. However, Lan and I was all prepared with his presents a week before. Ryan woke up to huge boxes of presents which he excitedly open :) He got a new keyboard from atuk, a desk from nenek, Playskool Car Garage from mummy, Thomas the Train beginner set from daddy, books from Mak Long & Pak Long, a Mega Bloks Truck from Wan Sue and a mini bike from his aunts from Jalan Kebun :) Alhamdullilah, murah rezeki anak mummy, kan?

The celebration was pretty minimal this year but that does not make it any less special :) Mummy loves you very much and you are in my prayers every single second of the day. May you grow up to be a soleh, responsible,loving, intelligent, handsome young man and please be a good brother to your sisters. Ya Allah please bless my son with love, health and happiness always *insyallah*

Currently, I know you may feel a bit "threatened" having to compete for attention with two new babies at once but please be assured that you'll always be my favourite baby boy. You're very special sweetheart that is why Allah choose to give you twin sisters because he knows you have so much love in your heart :) Not everyone is as lucky.

Mummy and daddy sayang you infinity ok Muhammad Ryan Daniel :)

The birthday tidbits for Ryan's classmates. Yummy chocolate covered Oreos courtesy of Daddy. Love the Cars and Upin and Ipin edible images

Iman Khadeeja & Ranya Fatimah

2012-01-10T23:09:00.000-08:00

I've been way behind in updating my blog. I guess been pretty busy in tending to my 2 gorgeous princesses. I can't believe that tomorrow they'll be a month "young" already. Time sure flies.

Seems like yesterday when my water broke a day earlier than my planned c-section schedule. It was 745am and I just woke up. Unlike most people I wasn't really confused about whether it was urine or amniotic fluid because the fluid wasn't trickling out, it was GUSHING when I stood up from the bed :p I guess double the baby = double the fluid.

I called my mum to tell her, after which Lan and I rushed out in a fury to get my hospital bag (which thankfully was pack the night before) drop by my parents house to hug Ryan (who was devastated he had to stay home) and sped to SDMC, Subang.

I was pretty lucky that it was a public holiday for Selangor so Lan was home, morning traffic was also pretty clear so we managed to arrive at the hospital in 15 minutes. The contractions started every 10 minutes when I was in the car and I managed it via breathing techniques (or whatever I remembered from Ryan's class 2 years ago :p). Since we did our pre-admission earlier, we went straight to the labour ward.

Hehe the nurse looked a bit shocked when I stride in announcing that my water broke and I'm expecting twins. Seperti biasa muka sardine :p There was a flurry of activities after that. When the nurses check at around 9am-ish I was already 6cm dilated (after less than 2 hours) too bad wasn't able to deliver normally or it would have been a very quick labour. Anyway had to go through the labour pain for 2 hours without gas/painkillers etc because I had to wait for the anaesthetists to administer the drug before the procedure.

I was wheeled in the preparatory operation room around 10am. Lan was able to accompany me up till that point only. The anaesthetist came in to explain "stuff". Thank god I already know my choices because I don't know how I would have been able to make the decision with the pain being so strong at that point.

After signing the agreement form, it was time to go into the operation theatre. Had to say goodbye to my husband at that point, so that was pretty sucky having to go through the process alone this time around :( ie no one to scream abuses to haha :p

Thank god the nurses, anaesthetist and Dr D was in good cheer. Everyone was joking around so I was able to keep myself calm. The anaesthetist inserted the anaesthetic thingy at the base of my spine, the process wasn't painful but a bit uncomfortable. He commented that I'm pretty calm compared to most ladies having to go through an emergency surgery, I just smiled and said "Nothing much I can do about it, right ?" And Dr D was like " dia memang macam tu, ok je all the time"

After 2-3 minutes the docs checked whether I've started feeling numb, I told them I can't feel the pain no more, so they take it as a YES and Doc D told me she's gonna cut a small section and please tell her if I feel any pain (I can't see anything as they put a screen between my chest and belly). After that I felt a lot of tugging and pulling but no pain. 10 minutes passed when I hear the sweet sound of the baby crying :) the ever so cheery anaesthetist (whom I can't remember his name for the life of me) practically shouted " it's a girl" :) Two more minutes of tugging, another cry joined the room and I was told " you got another baby girl and they are perfect :)"

The nurses cleaned the babies up and did the whole Apgar testing and when they are done, showed the two babies to me. Unlike Ryan's birth I wasn't able to hold and nurse them immediately because I was still on the operating table getting sewn back up :p at the same time I was told by the paediatrician that she had to rushed the younger twin to the nursery to be put under the warmer as she's a bit small and wasn't able to regulate her temperature on her own.

The process of getting me stitched back up is longer than the "cutting" process, anyway I learned more about my dear gynea and her love for designer bags especially "Hermes" and how she bought her 4 kids a BMW each haha. Jealous mak :p. Everything was all done by 11am and I was put under observation for 30mins before being wheeled back to my room.

Anyway seeing Lan waiting outside the OT was such a relieved :p we had to wait for a bit before they send "kakak" to us. Adik wasn't warmed out enough so we had to wait even longer.

I had a bit of a scare when I started bleeding heavily 2 hours after the surgery. I remember telling Lan that I felt clammy and uncomfortable and maybe we should ask the nurses to changed the sheets. When the nurse came in, she was shocked to see I was soaked in blood from waist to toe. They administer some pitocin, massage blood clots out of me and I was given some painkiller. I remembered feeling drowsy as hell but refusing to sleep until I get to see both my girls.

We were in the hospital for 4 days 3 night. Had to stay a day extra because my kakak had a bad case of jaundice. Alhamdullilah her birubilin level decreases after a few rounds of phototheraphy, so we were cleared to leave the next day.

So far my journey taking care of the girls who Lan and I decided to name Iman Khadeeja and Ranya Fatimah has been pretty smooth. Alhamdullilah :) of course it is a bit of a challenge taking care of 2 newborns and a very jealous 2 year old but we've managed so far with the help of my parents, sister and a whole load of patience. Mr Azlan is really taking his role as daddy anak 3 fantastically :) so lucky to have him around (buek he made me write this)

More on the progress of Ryan, Iman and Ranya once I get the time to blog on my lappie and not the BB like I'm doing now (should spend less time online shopping haha)

I can't believe I'm a mother of 3 at 28 hahaha

Wordless Wednesday #14

2011-12-14T00:01:00.000-08:00

Bipolar Itchiness :p

2011-12-06T00:02:00.000-08:00

I guess I've been MIA for the past weeks. Don't really feel like updating my blog or FB status, though I do make the effort to tweet once in a while. I guess tweeting takes lesser effort.

So what's new?? I'm schedule for a c-section on 131211. Both babies are in a breech position so after thorough discussion with my gynea + hubby we decided that is the best way to go. Both babies are healthy and have passed the 2.5kg mark and am now over 37 weeks old *alhamdullilah*

Anyway things have been pretty uneventful up till last week when I caught a bad case of dermatitis (caused by pregnancy hormones). The itchiness was CRAZY and my scratching aggravated the condition and me eating a bunch of crabs triggered an allergic reaction and later some infection of water blisters on my leg. Drama :p the blisters was as big as a 50cent coins and I can barely walked. My gynea referred me to a skin specialist and after a round of meds, lotions and antibiotics, alhamdullilah I'm doing so much better :)

Was feeling a bit down when all these was happening. Normal I guess when you're carrying a 5kg load on your belly, pain in your legs and kena melayan a 2 year old who's acting out for attention.

My mood was awful on da first day of treatment and patience was running a bit thin that I did lose my temper at Ryan once or twice. I felt bad afterwards and him being him did not hold grudges :p Anyway my mum told me to be patient and Allah won't test me if he don't think I can take it.

That got me thinking hard, why am I sitting there feeling bad for myself when I had an almost perfect 34 weeks of pregnancy. Some people got it so much worst with morning sickness, complications etc. My colleague even told me she suffered an almost similar condition for 4months of pregnancy. For someone who's carrying twins I got it pretty easy. Anyway nothing that is truly worth it comes easy, right? If this is the small price I have to pay before I'll get to hold the twins in my arms I will gladly take it.

As cliché as it may sound, the positiveness really help. My road to recovery have been great so far. My skin is 70% back to normal condition and full recovery will probably be after birth since it is due to hormones.

Don't know if I'll be blogging more this week but do pray for our safety and really can't wait to meet my little munchkins next week *insyallah* Till then take care *hugz*

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Baby Shower : Part 2 & 3

2011-11-17T00:07:00.000-08:00

My Twinnies Baby Shower
17/11/11
Marmalade, Republika Dutamas

My office colleagues threw me a baby shower during lunchtime today. I had so much fun,the food was good and love all the effort taken on the deco/gift pack/cuppies etc. Too bad some of chickies i.e. NickyD, Nina and Jean was not able to join us but they are there in spirit :p

Love the gift (haha the best choice for picky lil me)

Ze deco + door gifts

Brownie in a cup by Chef Nicole (MIA Organizer A) ;p

Our food

Doc Lisa, Kak Sham & Syer

With Doc, Kak Yati and my super enormous belly

With cutey mummy Wiaam

Thank you Organizer B : Miss Sher who was running around all day making everything perfect :p

Sumpah aku rasa aku sweet dlm gambar ni (hahaha)

34 Weeks and Counting

2011-11-09T19:55:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah. I’m happy to announce that my babies are both above the 2kg mark at 34weeks. Gumpy weights 2.4kg whereas little Gummy is 2.08kg. We’re so happy that we’ve passed one hurdle and now my main task is to ensure that the babies stay in my tummy for at least 2 more weeks.

The babies are still breech so the possibility of going through a c-section procedure is getting higher. Babies at 36weeks ++ (especially in multiple pregnancy) will rarely change their position due to the lack of space so I’ve 2 more weeks to cajoled the little ones to make the 180.

At the same time I’ve started reading articles on C-sect to increase my knowledge on the procedures/after care/cost etc. The more l learn the more nervous I get but at least I can manage my expectations. For all I know I may end up delivering the babies normally after all but it does not hurt to be well prepared, right?

Babies Preparations

We managed to wash all the baby laundry during the long weekend. Actually I have to credit hubby for carrying out the actual deed. I HATE doing laundry with a passion and as cute as the little clothes and mittens looks they are actually a b***ch to wash and lipat.

Since that one (boring) task is done, we’re left with this week project which is to prepare my hospital bag, transfer babies’ clothes to my parent’s house and finish cleaning up the babies’ playroom once and for all. Believe it or not I still haven’t decided on the paint colour yet. So the playroom deco project is pending at the moment because mummy is being her normal fickle self.

Anyway, we’re having doa selamat for the babies (and mummy) at our Surau today. I think holding the ceremony at the surau is a good call on my parents behalf as very minimal preparations needs to take place (order pre packed food/ buy drinks + fruits + packed everything in a bag) Hopefully, everything goes well *insyallah*

Hari Raya Aidiladha

Our Raya celebration this year was good. We went back to Perak for a day to visit Lan’s grandparents on Saturday. Ryan had so much fun playing with Lan’s younger cousins. On Sunday, everybody woke up bright and early to enjoy the normal yummy Raya feast of ketupat and rendang and my sister made nasi beriyani for lunch.

Later Lan brought Ryan to check out the cows and when daddy was busy helping with “melapah” the lembu, mummy and baby spent half of the afternoon napping (haha) We received so much free food and meat on Sunday :) We went back to Jalan Kebun later in the evening so Ryan can see my in laws.

Monday was mostly spent at home cleaning and lepaking. I don’t feel like going out much this days, even for shopping (*gasp*) Holidays are best spent rolling on the bed with Ryan (Lan optional) doing our best dinosaur impersonation hehehe.

Have a good week everyone!

Unproductive Friday Evening

2011-11-04T01:43:00.000-07:00

Unless there's an urgent deadline, my brain usually shuts down after Friday lunch. I guess I'm just so sick of the office at the moment and can't wait to start my long weekend :)

Anyway here's some photo update on last weekend activities and of my fav baby boy in the whole wide world : Mr Muhammad Ryan Daniel.

Ryan with his latest acquisition courtesy of Nenek. The board is kinda cool, you can take out the foam alphabet and it will reveal a picture associated with the particular alphabet. This is Nenek's pre birthday present to Ryan *sigh* my little boy gets something new from nenek on a weekly basis that I feel sorry for the twins because I'm seriously out of new toys to buy for them.

On the other hand I'm very lucky in terms of baby preparations. Contrary to people's belief I actually do not need to buy 2 of everything. One because Ryan's stuff is still in very good condition (e.x: car seat so we only needed to buy one).

Secondly, it is due to the fact that Ryan has 2 sometimes 3 of the same baby thingy, mostly because people end up buying the same thing for him him as a present e.x baby play gym/tents etc. So can save a lot of money from there :)

Ryan playing "badminton" with daddy thanks to Upin n Ipin's influence. I can't find an age appropriate badminton racket so I bought him this tennis set from Daiso instead. Best RM5 I spent so far because it is currently his fave toy.

Went to Meatworks @Citta Mall Last week because I was craving for the steak. My sirloin was ok, nothing spectacular though.

Hubby's BBQ burger. Ok la but he thinks that the meat is kinda dry. But I love the onion ring. Ryan was asleep in his stroller when we reach Citta. So managed to have our lunch in peace (haha) All in all not bad and I think I'll bring my parents here after my pantang to celebrate and as a form of thank you :)

Drama at the barber. My son who is blessed with a head full of hair goes to the barber more often than my own trip to the salon. But he still hates it and mesti nangis nye. Waktu ni tengah slow talk and "rationalize" with him on why he needs to cut his hair. He siap bawak Mcqueen nak bagi moral support bagai. But as you can see muka dah cemik. Haha

Atuk and nenek lorat. 10 mins after we reached the barber and while waiting for our turn, my dad BBMed me asking whether Ryan is crying, I just said la Ryan muka panic, pastu tak sampai 5 minit my parents dah muncul depan the shop. Moral support tahap dewanya mesti mamak tu geram, lepas ni kena ban hahaha

Hehehe Ryan is getting really good at performing his solat. Dah pandai takbir, hand position waktu fatihah, duduk antara dua sujud and sujud. Tapi selalunya 1 1/2 rakaat je la pastu dia bosan so still have to take turns. Tapi kalau nak sembahyang jemaah selamba je we let him loose mcm kat Mekah dulu, he knows well enough not to kacau :)
Anyway the kindy have transferred Ryan to the 3 year old class despite him not even turning 2 yet. I guess they are now going on the year of birth basis. I'm a little worried at first but after a very successful first week of constant praises by his "ibu's" and guru besar my worry is assuaged :) Ryan is doing really well, no tantrums, followed all the activities with no problems and dah kurang minum susu using his bottle. So proud of my abang long :)

Anyway have a good weekend everyone and Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha in advanced :)

My little buns in the oven...

2011-11-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

I need a break from Rules ammendments & SPMS

For some reason the nearer I am to my EDD, more work seem to be piling in. Not that I mind, it’s a good distraction especially on the days when my heartburn is really acting up. With the babies growing at an incredible rate of 1.4kg and 1.6 kg respectively @32 weeks and nearing the expected growth spurt during the 32-36 weeks span I bet it will only become worst.

Ironically, the medicine that is helping me control my contraction is also the culprit that is aggravating the heartburn. Oh well, some sacrifice on my part in order to ensure that the little munchkins can bake longer in the oven. No more midnight snacks,overly spicy food and chocolaty stuff for the time being.Trust me projectile vomiting in the middle of the night is no fun *TMI* hehe

Anyway,since 60% of twins are born premature (according to babycenter) I choose to plan things on a weekly basis unlike with Ryan where the aim was just to give birth after 37 weeks.First I aim to carry the twin up to 28 weeks, and then 30 etc.

Alhamdullilah we have passed the 32 weeks mark and next week the babies will be 34 weeks old *insyallah* and hopefully they’ll cruise pass 36 weeks + be over 2kg and not have to spend time in the hospital after birth. I’m sure the babies will cooperate with mummy, right :)

My cutey babies have moved from their transverse (lying position) position into being breach (heads up legs down) Doc is still kinda positive that they have plenty of time to turn in 4 weeks time, so I will only know the verdict whether I’ll be going for normal/C-section when I reach 36 weeks.

Other than heartburn and the normal 3rd trimester discomforts, everything have been going very well so far. Preparations is 95% done, we just need to wash the babies clothing and prepare the hospital bag this week and move some stuff to my parents house in preparation of confinement.

So that’s a little baby’s update from da mama. Anyway, pray that my SPMS goes well tomorrow *insyallah*

Party Planning : Ryan's Turning Two :)

2011-10-13T19:52:00.000-07:00

I love planning parties :)

I love researching for party ideas, D.I.Y deco's projects, coming up with themes.I will actually sit on my ass for 2 hours to make 50 personalized paper bags because I truly love the creative process. The results takdela cantik mana pun but there's a feeling of pure satisfaction for going the extra mile for someone you truly care about.

Anyway Ryan's 2nd Birthday is about 2 months away.We're not planning on a big bash but just a small celebration at home and another mini celebration in school which consist of preparing party favours for his "classmates" and teachers.

I'm a bit freaked out because Ryan's birthday will fall during my pantang period, which means I won't be free to go out of the house to get things done. However, I will not use that as an excuse to not make the extra effort to make 20th December 2011 special.I don't want Ryan to feel sideline by the arrival of his siblings.

Hubby pointed out that our son can't even tell the time much less the date of his birthday so I shouldn't worry :p (haha) Anyway, Lan also pointed out that I can always order the cakes online (like I've been doing all along), designed the box/bag favours first and he and my parents can always go get the other stuff for me later. But because I'm crazy, we actually have conversation that sounds like this:

Me: "But what if you got the wrong box/colour/brand/Milo kotak?"
Lan: "How can I get the wrong type of Milo kotak?? Why can't you just tell me the exact colour/brand etc and I will get it for you"
Me: "What if they don't have the particular thing I wanted and I can't be there to make the decision blah blah blah.."
Lan: *looks confused* "Tiba2 the whole of Klang will be sold out of the box you wanted because you're not there??? B, I tell you what, apa kata you pergi beli all the kotak/jajan/milo now and store it at our house. That way you'll get to CHOOSE apa yang you nak"

Hehehe I think by that time Lan has lost interest in our pointless conversation and dah malas nak layan. I know he was being sarcastic but that is what I'm planning to do anyway.

Last year's Birthday Theme: Sesame Street

This year's top 3 choices: Dinosaurs, Cars2 or Upin & Ipin

I'm leaning toward Upin and Ipin for school (sebab most of the kiddies will be able to relate to it better and it is more gender neutral) and a mix of Dino and Cars for celebration @home and Ryan's proposed birthday presents :) (Takut tak sempat nak get his present on time, so gonna buy it ahead of time and hide it under my bed)

I love the idea of brown bagging the party favours. Cool :)

My other plan is to personalize the gift boxes according to the choosen theme.

Hubby proposed on getting some personalize choc covered Oreo's instead of cupcakes as a part of the favours. Me like :) something different...

Anyway I will continue to scout for more favours ideas . Feel free to share your thoughts if you have any...
Have a good weekend everyone *muackz*

"Babies Dalam Peyut"

2011-09-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

I had my 28 weeks checkup last week, Alhamdullilah everything is ok so far :)

I suffered from abdominal pains earlier last month. It was a cross between normal braxton hicks and real contraction pains. Obviously, I panicked as the pain was more pronounced than anything I've ever experienced while pregnant with Ryan. Lan dragged me to my other gynea in Klang (which thankfully open at night) and she told me that the pain is caused by my uterus having to strech more than usual to accommodate the twins.

Doctor D prescribed me some terbutaline to relax the contractions and so far it been working (no more painful contractions :) ) though there's other some minor side effect that I've got to cope with i.e. minor shakes in my hands and some flu like symptoms esp at night. I guess, I've to manage some of the discomforts for the sake of my lil munchkins.

Check out the amount of pills I have to swallow everyday :(

The other 3rd trimester discomforts that is slowly trickling in are major exhaustion at the end of the day, back pains, some swelling and of course my major enemy HEARTBURN. But since I'm more "experience" this time around, I managed to keep the pains at a tolerable level :) I go on with my normal activities, rest when I'm tired, eat moderately, go for pre pregnancy massages and am currently trying to increase my calcium intake. Since I can't stand milk on its own, I'm looking at alternative i.e. cheese, home made milkshakes, soy milk, milk with a bit of choc syrup etc.

When I'm not feeling too great, I'll try and keep myself busy. If I'm at home I'll distract myself with stuff like cleaning da babies room/things, playing games with Ryan and if the pain gets real bad I'll just force myself to sleep.If I'm at work - oh well I'll do whatever work I have la kan? hehe. I try to limit the moaning, bitching and feeling sorry for myself at a minimum. Negativity will only makes you feel worse TRUST ME :)

Anyway Gummy moved and is now in a transverse position like adik. So both twins are currently lying horizontally across mummy's tummy. I'm kinda nervous but doctor assured me there's still a chance that they babies will move to the right position. Oh well whatever procedure I have to go through, I will accept it as long as my little honeybunnies is delivered in good health *insyallah* :)

Speaking of good health Gummy is now 1.08kg while Gumpy is a 1.2kg. Their weight is on track and I'm crossing my finger that come the 32weeks checkup they'll be around 2kgs or more *insyallah*

Lan and I managed to get 80% of the babies stuff already. The rest we'll probably buy at the end of this month. However, there's still a whole load of cleaning to do at my house and my mum's house since I'll be spending my pantang there.

Ryan who seem oblivious to my pregnancy for the past months laid down next to me this morning and patted my belly. "Baby??" he asked and when I said yes and wanted to keep on talking about it, he started playing peekaaboo with me.I guess he's still not interested with his adiks :p

Jakarta/Bandung Family Trip

2011-09-28T01:51:00.000-07:00

During the Malaysian Day weekend we managed to squeeze a short family trip to Jakarta/ Bandung. Good timing coz I don't think I'll be able to go anywhere out of Malaysia for the next 6 months (at least) :p

@LCCT waiting for the plane

@ the LCCT and Jakarta Airport

@ Ashton Cengkareng Hotel Jakarta

Anyway we hired a driver to take us around for the 4 days in Jakarta. Pak Yunus is a bit blur but he's very nice and sweet.

Pictures of Ryan running around the hotel and watching cartoon network

(He's overly excited watching Dibo the Dragon for the first time - oh well at least Dibo is less annoying than Barney)

17/09/2011 - Day trip to Bandung.

We went shopping in Pasar Baru and several factory outlet in Jalan Dago (Rumah Mode ;p)

The factory outlet for babies sells quality clothing but at a very cheap price. Crazy shopping for Ryan and the babies :)

Check out the pic of our 2nd day purchase. Anyway had Ayam Penyet for lunch and really yummy nasi padang for dinner. The cumi masak lemak is drool inducing :)

18/09/09 - Monas National Monument Park, Jakarta

My dad insisted that we also go sightseeing instead of just plain shopping for the 4 days in Jakarta

Hahaha tapi sempat jugak borong this "customize" headband

Ryan the manace :p

"Mummy tu" Ryan pointing at this HUGE Police canine
If I wasn't holding him, he would have ran to the tree where the dogs are resting *sigh*

People are laughing and pointing at Ryan's mooleash :pI know they are comparing them to the doggies leash but who cares kan?

As long as my baby is safe

Ryan, Mak Long and Diddie (Daddy)

Family Part 1
Daddy duduk, Ryan pun kena duduk gak :)
Check out the hairband in his hand, believe it or not he was wearing it for a good 5mins in the park *sigh* He thinks it is ok for him to wear it because mummy wear headbands all the time

3 stooges
@ Manggadua, Jakarta. Previously we spend 3 hours in TanahAbang and another 2 hours in Manggadua.
By this point Ryan dah sangat cranky, Lan and Abang Nan dah give up and I have to admit my 26 months preggy legs dah bengkak kecik. So we persuaded my dad to cancel his sightseeing plans so that we can go back to the hotel to rest :p

Dinner at Carrefour Cengkareng

Managed to do more shopping courtesy of my mum and dad. I bought a gorgeous Indonesian jubah for RM30. Me like :p

19/09/11 - Bye bye Jakarta. See you again next time. Insyaallah ;
Note: Excuse the lack of pictures as we're all too busy shopping and layaning Ryan's antics :p

A picture worth....

2011-09-26T19:38:00.000-07:00

Lately I find that Ryan spend more than an hour during the weekends watching TV. We don't subscribe to Astro's Cartoon Channels so his TV viewing is limited to Channel 618-Baby TV. Instead of letting him slum, I sometimes persuade him to join in the activities on TV. For example if the babies are dancing to the "hokey pokey" I'll make him mimic the actions too so he don't watch tv for the sake of watching alone.

Other than Cars CD's (which he can only watch during the weekend or if he manages to con atuk to play it in the evening), the daily 6.30pm Upin and Ipin, and one Elmo or Iqra' video per day,I've totally banned him from watching other form of non-educational cartoons (i.e. Ben10, Spongebob, Ultraman etc).Yes, I'm anal like that, but after reading an article about how fast paced cartoons esp Spongebob Squarepants can contribute to learning disorder later during childhood, Lan and I decided it is better to be safe than sorry (usaha & tawakal, I guess)

Anyway to distract him from the TV, I've decided to teach Ryan how to draw (doodle) and at the same time improve my own drawing skills. I bought this How To Draw book from MPH which cost a mere RM19.90, an art block and armed with a box of crayons started our art lessons with this :p

Drew some sea creatures for Ryan to colour :p

I'm supposed to draw within some boxes as a guide, but I'm lazy so I copied the pictures free hand instead.

Yes my tiger looks a bit cacat but identifiable la :p

Ryan's trying to improve on my work of art :p

He don't allow me to guide his hand to help him draw/write. So I'm letting his creativity run free for the moment. One of our shared traits is we don't do things well "procedurally".

Other plus points?? learning how to draw is a great mummy and baby bonding activity :p

Wordless Wednesday #13

2011-09-21T02:17:00.000-07:00

Cheat Note:

P/S: Infusion of 13 Chinese herbs taken during my pregnancy (with Ryan and now with the Twins). You've to boil them for at least 3-4 hours, and when it is boiled down to a cup, you sieved them and drink it. It taste bitter and disgusting (macam kari basi) but I'll drink it anyway for the well being of my children (haha)

PP/S: I was forced to take it after my uncle recommended the herbs to my mum, according to him one of the benefits of the herbs is that it will minimize the risk of eczema on your baby *insyallah* Experience wise Ryan and his cousins don't get rashes during infancy.

PPP/S: Should you choose to try it out, please check with your doctor's and certified sensei first. Herbs are heaty and this are usually not recommended for pregnancy under 3 months.So exercise with caution.

PPP/S: There's another herb called Kacip Fatimah that I took before labour. People would usually buy it in Mekah. Lucky enough I bought a bunch of it during my umrah walaupun nobody kirim (6th sense,maybe?) Will post a pic of it soon :)

Photo Updates: Hari Raya 2011

2011-09-13T22:42:00.000-07:00

Location: Klang, Jalan Kebun & Malacca
I Say: It was the best and worst of times

The star of the show : Ryan in his full Raya regalia :)

Antics di pagi raya

*Geram*

Daddy & Mummy : Beraya Time :)

Hubby's Raya Speech memang sungguh proper and "ikhlas" sampai make my mum all teary eye

Hahaha look at my parents face pun tau, my raya apology memang lawak

Hahah ni lagi tak ikhlas, nak salam kena clap bagai :p

Baby boy kena apologize banyak sebab selalu naughty kat atuk and nenek :p

Moks :p

Photo op je nie :p

Hehehe can't you tell that I'm more interested in taking pics than minta maaf :p

Mummy, abang, daddy and two lil kiddies in mummy's tummy :)

Testing the camera for family potrait. My dad geje sebab tak test the day before :p

Finally :)

The blackies beraya @ Jalan Kebun with Lan's family

Gambar senget and malas nak take again sebab Ryan dah agitated.

See we even have to bribe him with keropok

The boys minus Yusry (yg sgt kesian sbb kena kerja pagi raya)

Ryan and daddy

Mummy's boy :)

@ Merlimau, Malacca :

I asked Ryan to pose, so this is what he did..

My lil vainpot.

Looks like daddy but temperament 80% mummy :p

As I was snapping a whole load of candid photos, I demanded that Nenek posed for this picture. She complained at first because she wasn't in her best outfit but I told her "tak kisah-lah, cepat pose" and she did. Who knew that this would be the last time I'll be able to snap her picture :'(

Raya tahun depan mesti bosan because there's no nenek to come home to...

Family potrait minus my sis.

Of Travel and Heartburn...

2011-09-13T01:30:00.000-07:00

2 ½ more days and we’re off to Jakarta for the weekend. I still haven’t start packing despite the fast approaching date. The big headache is of course to pack for Ryan. I’ve already got Lan running around Klang to get his medication and stuff, should we forget the less important items we can always buy them later. Oh well I still have the checklist we used during our Umrah trip, packing wouldn’t be so bad as long as I start tonight: p

I should quit complaining about packing and enjoy my last trip overseas for the next 1-2 years. Just the thought of travelling on the airplane with two babies and a toddler send shivers down my spine (hahaha) Not only would it be more expensive, the travel arrangement would be a NIGHTMARE (luggage/strollers /screaming children etc), unless I can convinced my parents to tag along (like that would take much work) but we shall cross that bridge when the time comes.

I’m excited but also a bit nervous to be travelling while I’m 26 weeks pregnant *insyallah* hopefully, all would be fine. We’ve gone for my 6 months checkup the day before Raya and alhamdullilah both the babies and I are doing great *alhamdullilah*. I managed to gained 2kgs which 1 kg goes to the babies.

Baby A – Little Gummy weigh around 540g while Baby B- Si Gumpy who is younger but heavier weighs around 620g. Gumpy is still in a transverse cuddly position right on top of my tummy, which explains the weight. I’m a bit worried over the babies position but Dr De.laila assured me that as long as one baby is in an engaged position (Little Gummy) I still have a chance to go for normal delivery *insyallah* She assured me that there’s no need to worry about it (yet) as I still have at least 14 more weeks before we need to make that decision.

As for the sex, Gumpy is still uncooperative as my little munchkin kept on crossing his/her leg. However doc did make an assessment and their sexes are……………… (try again later, I will not reveal until I’m like 80% sure of BOTH of the babies sexes :p) Anyway I know enough to be able to shop in Jakarta and Bandung. I remembered going to the Babies Warehouse in Bandung and salivating when I was single, Imagine now with 3 kids I can seriously do real damage (Hopefully hubby can exercise my self control for me hehe)

Anyway my heartburn is getting worse. It was as bad when I was pregnant with Ryan (my one big pregnancy *yuckz*) I’m comforted by the fact that studies have shown that the hormone that creates baby hair causes the heartburn. As for the accuracy of the research, I suffered from bad heartburn and Ryan was born with a full set of hair. Whatever la kan, as long as the babies are healthy botak pun takpe :)

Posting some pics from Raya. Will post more pics from the camera soon once I can find the time to edit them.

My handsome boy :)

Ryan and Mummy

Lounging at Wan Sue's House :)

Ryan loves his watermelon *sigh*

Grieving My Loss...

2011-09-06T01:17:00.000-07:00

Salam & Hello Everyone,

How was your Raya Break? Hope everyone had a great time with family/friends/loved ones

The start of my Raya break was pretty good. We managed to host an iftar dinner at my house 2 days before Raya, I went shopping with my parents, and celebrated 1st Syawal with my family and in laws. This Raya is more meaningful bacause Ryan is older and able to appreciate the celebration more. I can’t help but smile watching his antics, running around in his full set of baju melayu, sampin and songkok, playing “pop-pop” with my cousins, ordering people around to do his bidding and collecting duit raya.

However, our Raya mood this year was dampen when I was woken up by a phone call from my daddy at 3am on Friday of 4th Syawal informing me that my Nek Jah have passed away. I was in Perak at that time and all I wanted to do was to rushed back to Malacca at once.

During the drive back to Malacca, I kept on telling myself that maybe it was all just a mistake. I just had breakfast with my nenek 2 days before and she was fine. I know she wasn’t feeling well after her heart attack early this Ramadhan but she told me she’s recuperating well.

I remembered telling her to take good care of herself because she has two more cicit incoming this November. She just smiled. Come to think of it, that was a bit weird because she’s usually very excited when the subject of Ryan or the twins came up. She’s also uncharacteristically quiet, preferring to observe the kids playing, smiling at Ryan’s naughty antics and listening to the chatter around her.

I felt a bit terkilan because I didn’t really manage to spend more time with nenek. I wanted to linger around for a bit but we ended up leaving Merlimau in a bit of a rush because Lan wanted to catch his parents who was in Malacca before going back to Klang. My last conversation with nenek was when she complimented my tudung style before I went home; I wished I spend those last precious moments hugging and kissing her instead of wasting my time primping in front of the mirror.

I took it for granted that she’ll always be there for me whenever I needed her. After all she’s been a steady presence in my life for the past 28 years.

I remembered when she ran after me when I decided to "run away" because I merajuk when she reprimanded me for being naughty.

I remembered how she used to nag me when I decided to “main pasir” outside the house, but still accompanied me outside pretending that she’s doing housework padahal she just wanted to make sure I’m safe.

I remembered how she took the bus to Klang 2 days earlier rather than wait for my aunt to finished work so that she can be with me early to help prepare for my wedding.

I remembered how she took my side when I was complaining about my mum’s strict confinement practices and ended up cooking my lunch the day she visisted Ryan and I.

There are a lot of things I remembered and it breaks my heart to think that she’s no longer with us to create more happy memories together. No more listening to her tease me about my “baju artist”, no more eating her delicious cooking, no more listening to her complaint while I snap candid pictures of her without her “bedak”, and to think that the twins won’t be able to meet their Nyang just short of 3 months before their delivery date is just so sad :( I can’t even bring myself to upload Raya pictures because I still can’t accept that those are my last pictures with her.

Nenek, I hope you know how much I love you and that I appreciate how you’ve taken care of Mama, Ayah, Along and Anna as if we’re your own flesh and blood. Thank you for accepting Lan and Abang Nan as your “cucu menantu” and for always spoiling Ryan with hugs and kisses. We will miss you very much.

Ya Allah, kau tempatkan lah arwah nenek ku di kalangan orang yang beriman dan kau ampunkan lah dosa-dosanya. *insyallah*al-fatihah*

Salam Aidilfitri

2011-08-25T22:31:00.001-07:00

I guess this will be my last post before Raya holidays starts:) I'm in no mood whatsoever to do anything, I'm in my Raya mood all the way... My mind is already at home thinking about setting up pelita raya (hehe) and packing.

Urgghh packing for a toddler is a headache. I have to make sure Ryan's essentials is all packed. His medications, bantal busuk, clothes, fan ( yes anak saya lorat x tahan panas) etc. The car memang penuh dengan barang Ryan je ok... I can't imagine how full my car will be next year (hehehe)

Anyway, we'll be spending 1st Raya morning with my family, afternoon with my in-laws and then we're going back to Melacca in the evening. On 3rd day of Raya we'll be going back to Lan's kampung in Tanjung Malim (insyaallah).

So I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya and seek forgiveness for all my "salah and silap". I hope everyone will have a good holiday, for those who are driving please be careful. Take care everyone :) *hugzhugz*

The Twin Reaction

2011-08-24T00:54:00.000-07:00

What is it about pregnant woman that brings out the doctor’s and weird questions in people?

I’ve had my share of annoying/insensitive/useless comments and “advices” from people when I was pregnant with Ryan. My reaction is usually to just smile, ignore, go home and bitch to Lan about it. The level of “penyibukness” and “stupidity” is beyond comprehension especially once they find out that I’m expecting twins. Double the baby, double the annoying comments.

Example of some of the questions/comments that I’ve received and my answers (or what I wish I could have answered) when they found out I’m pregnant with twins, some are harmless and funny but some are downright offensive :-

• Do twins run in the family?
Nope

• Is it identical or fraternal?
Fraternal

• What do you mean when you say they are fraternal twins?
It means at the time of conception they are created from 2 different eggs and sperms and they resides in two different sacs (sumpah science class :))

• Would that mean they will have the same gender?
Not necessarily, statistically it means we could be expecting a pair (boy +girl), 2 girls or 2 boys.

• Are you going for natural or c-section?
I prefer natural birth but we’ll cross that bridge when the time comes

• (Mesti ada yg tak puas hati when I answered that way so next question will be...) What? I think you should INSISIT on natural birth, I’ve seen this done on YouTube somewhere in USA and it is not that hard blah blah blah
You idiot I didn’t say I WANT to go for a c-section but if the babies are not in an ideal position takkan nak paksa keluar gak kan? I’m open to every possibility.

• Why is your stomach so small? Are you are SURE there’s twins in there?
Yes (what I wanted to say is “nope, I’m making this is up as I go along because I’m bloody LOA. Yes I’m sure *double roll eyes* )

• How did you do it?
Duh!! (Do you want me to SHOW you?)

• Did you plan on having twins?
Nope (hahaha this is kinda stupid, how do you PLAN twin pregnancy ? Not like I’m Octomum and can request for the doctors to plant extra embryos in my body)

• Did you take any pills/hormones etc so that you can have twins?
Nope (How is it any of your businees??? Sumpah I find this question incredibly insensitive as this kind of things is terribly personal. Busybody to the core)

• You must have s*x more than once right?
Me: *put on straight face* Yes a gazillion time, don’t you??

• If they are off the same gender mesti you wanna buy the same clothes for them kan?
Maybe but not ALL the time. After all they are twins not CLONES

• If they are both girls, mesti you won’t pay much attention to Ryan anymore kan? OR people saying this in front of Ryan “bila adik ada mesti orang tak sayang Ryan dah kan”
OMG this really get my blood boiling. First of all, don’t bloody put ideas in my baby’s head, just because he’s young that does not mean he don’t understand things said to him and Secondly, Ryan is not some old shoes that I will cast off just because I have a new pair. He is my FIRST BORN, of course I will try to give all of my children the attention that they need regardless their age/gender. That’s what parents do – they love ALL of their babies unconditionally.

• My personal favorite, coming from someone who is older who thinks she can say whatever she wants because she’s somehow related to a relative (technically she has no direct family connection to me )
“Ni agaknya bila dah masuk 7-8 bulan mesti dah terlantar kat hospital sebab perut mesti takleh tampung kembar blah blah blah” Because my mum thought me better I just smiled and said “Insyallah ok, Farhanna doakan yang terbaik” but this woman yang tak nak kalah can say “entahla makcik tengok kamu ni and badan kamu ni mcm tak leh tahan je, mesti nanti terlampau memboyot etc”

I swear to god I wanted to SLAP her face, but I turned and pura2 fussed with Ryan instead. Doesn’t she know, words are like “doa” so it would have been better for her to say positive things instead of negative stuff but I know words would be wasted on people like her? So the main key is to ignore.

Oh well, I can’t change people but I can control my reaction to them, right? I better be prepared with more “interesting remarks” especially with Hari Raya approaching. Good lesson on patience for the little munchkins :p

P/S: Anyway my family and close friends have been incredibly supportive and excited about the new additions :) Loving their reaction, tak over but not dismissive, just the way I like it :) hehehe

Photo Updates : Iftar Weekend

2011-08-21T22:17:00.000-07:00

Date: 20 August 2011
Crabby Potluck Party @ Tinie's and Cat's Lovenest

The usual suspects :)

With my baby boy :)

What I made : Smiley Face Cheese Tartlet haha (muka Najwa gila kan :p )

Muka Kenyang: Part I

Muka Kenyang II : Ketam kismis style

Father and Son

Credits: pic for Crabby's are from Reebok's camera

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Date: 21 August 2011
Al Rawsha, I-City, Shah Alam with Lan's Clan. No photo of food and other people coz mummy too busy feeding her lil baby dino.

Happily posing before his big meltdown

I bought him this weird fan/light noisemaker thingy and a buble maker which he adores :)

Finally, after so long I can now say I've been to I-City. Never bothered before due to traffic jam and exorbidant parking rates :p

Ryan, Mummy and the seahorses :)

Why Mario got 3 :p

With the bangau

Bare Minimum Preparations??

2011-08-18T01:18:00.000-07:00

We’re halfway through Ramadan. Hopefully our ibadah is as glorious and “meriah” as our Hari Raya preparations.

Speaking of Raya preparations, I’m pretty much set for Syawal. Since I'm simply allergic to crowds, I decided to save myself from the hassles and did my shopping early. I decided that all of us will go for readymade baju’s to avoid last minute headaches with the tailor. Got Lan, Daddy, FIL and Ryan’s Baju Melayu from Parkson and JJ (sorryla tak kuasa nak go through jam in PKNS,SACC etc).

I also managed to borong loads of Ryan’s casual clothing during the Mothercare & GAP sales. I find that it was more of a bargain as compared to the Raya sales as we got an additional 10% member discounts on top of the normal 50%-70%. In addition to the t-shirts that my sis and Cath got for Ryan from Paris and Japan my little boy is all set up to next year in term of clothes.

I haven’t bought anything for myself. I still have 4 new jubah from Mecca that have not been worn yet, a caftan from Chanteq that I bought on a whim a few months back and a maternity batik kurung that I only worn once. I guess I’ll choose something to wear from my cupboard instead. Saving my $$$ for my trip to Jakarta mid of next month. Though I do think that I deserve a new shoe for being so frugal (Azlan take note- I can imagine my husband feigning deafness/blindness)

My Raya preparations for the house this year is also pretty minimal. I guess since we've just moved in earlier this year, everything still looks brand new so I don't really need to go all out on Raya decorating. My ID motto is the simpler the better :) Anyway with a toddler around and 2 more babies underway I figured that it is better to keep the dust collecting/ fragile/breakable items out of the way: p

Raya would not be much without kuih raya,right? I ordered a grand total of 2 balang kuih raya, one which would be given to my mummy. Malas nak membazir sebab not like people would eat the kuih pun so I rather stick to kerepek. Siapa datang rumah I’ll cook for you instead, ok :p

My final shopping list? Cookie container, a new teapot (since SOMEONE broke my fave teapot lid *sobsob*), Fairy lights or pelita?? (Can’t decide between these two, what do you think?), songkok Ryan, Baju raya for mummy and slippers for MIL. Hopefully by the end of this month, this list will continue to be as short .

Ramadhan and My Twin Pregnancy

2011-08-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

It's a bit depressing to spend Friday lunch in the office, but in order to leave early (i.e. 4.00pm) I need to forgo my usual 2 hours lunch break.

Anyway today is the 12 day of Ramadan. The fasting months have been good so far :) I've been fasting on alternate days on doctors advice. Actually she would have preferred if I do not fast at all this year but after discussing with Lan and doing some research on fasting while pregnant with twins I decided to go ahead.

Alhamdullilah, I don't have much problem fasting. I don't get super hungry/thirsty but at the end of the day I do feel a bit more exhausted (which is easily remedied by going to bed extra early i.e by 10pm every night- yes 1opm is very early for me ok..hehehe )

However, unlike fasting when I was preggers with Ryan, this time around I really have to watch what I eat during sahur.I would need to drink at least 500ml of plain water (trust me it is not easy to gulp that amount of water at 5am), eat at least 4-5 pieces of kurma (my savior), have at least 1/2 a bowl of cereal/pasta/nasi, a bottle of vitagen and take all of my supplement.

It sounds a bit tiresome but I guess when you are carrying twins the effect of fasting has a different effect on your body. I ate 2 pieces of bread and drank a cup of tea for sahur last week and end up having to break fast at 10am because my body was shaking due to low sugar level. Thank god I always keep a stash of choc and biscuits in my office drawer/car :p

I've been monitoring my weight daily. My main aim is to maintain my current weight and ensure there's no more weight loss. Babies are kicking actively so I take it my little munchkins are fine kicking each other in my tummy hehe. My main concern is of course the babies growth, I need to ensure that the babies are growing at a steady pace and at the same rate. Since I can't measure their growth with my own eyes, I'm basing my assessment based on my weight, growing tummy size and fetal activities.

It seems like a lot of work, but my motto is to prepare for the worst but pray for the best. Being pregnant with twins means the pregnancy risk would automatically double. I'm more succestible to gestational diabetes, pregnancy high blood pressure, early labour, pre-term pregnancy, c-section etc. I don't want to live in denial and assume that my pregnancy will be all rainbows and candies but at the same time I choose not to be pessimistic and focus on "risks" and end up not enjoying my pregnancy. Balance is the key :)

Currently,I'm reading all sorts of literature on twins pregnancy. Sometimes the more I read the more I feel like panicking (haha) but based on my experience with Ryan, having some basic knowledge on what to expect do help on some level. At least you won't end up all panicky when your are face with the unwanted situation.

Oh well, I'm already thinking about the mac n cheese bites and mini cheese cake I'll be preparing for buka puasa today and tomorrow (buruk perangai puasa tapi non-stop fikir pasal food kan) hahaha

Have a good weekend everyone :) Take care *muackz*

Wordless Wednesday #12

2011-08-09T21:32:00.001-07:00

Seven @ The Bees

2011-08-02T22:54:00.000-07:00

Venue:
The Bee's, Jaya One, PJ

Date:
30 July 2011 (Saturday)

Occasion:
Lepak Session with da gals(and hubbies)before the start of Ramadan

Food & Restaurant review:
I love the Rootbeer float :p, My French Burger is not bad -7/10, Lan's Cheeseburger scores about the same. The Churros is not bad either. I guess their specialty is the burgers as the pasta review was just "so-so". It's a pretty cool place to hangout, it has a nice ambiance but I wouldn't say it is a very child friendly place (Thank god we left Ryan at home). The music was really loud (I would say "blaring" at one point)that you have to kinda raise your voice in order to have a normal conversation. But all in all not bad :)

Left to Right: Miss Ferragamo -Farisa, Bowly Champion Udadidado, Tinie (hehe can't believe our EDD dekat2 *insyallah*), Reebok (glowy kerana sudah ada "perisik" sbb baru dirisik -j/k bodo I know :p), Smelly Blue Cheese Pipi Kembong Kacang @najwa83, ME :) and Ienanononi yg tak dapat QC my camera sbb Lan sorok hahaha.

All of us minus En Azlan, who took this very unflattering picture of me :p

A sooprise for Uda, Reebok and Myself. Thanks gals. So sweet of all of you :)

This is like the 3rd time the photographer suruh berlakon tiup candle. Sampai cengkung pipi

Anyway I had a lot of fun catching up with everyone. Need to plan one berbuka puasa session soon. Muackz-muacks :)

P/S: The reason why there's a sudden flood of updates is because I'm spending lunchtime in the office. There's a slight adjustment to our flexi scheduling during Ramadhan where the Muslims are allowed to go home earlier (in my case 445) if we forfeit our lunch hour.

April - June 2011 Photos Updates

2011-08-01T22:08:00.001-07:00

Lan's 30th Birthday Dinner - Our Crib :)

We had a small family gathering to celebrate hubby's b-day on 17/4/2011.
Menu: We had yummy MU themed choc chips/bluberry cuppies from Nadibakes + Nasi Tomato, ayam kurma and the works (courtesy of my sis), Pizza + KFC

Random pictures from the dinner :)

Short Family Trip : Glory Beach Resort, Port Dickson

Ryan LOVES the water.
We didn't let him take a dip in the ocean this time around as sea water from this side of PD is a bit dirty.
My 3rd Convocation in UiTM : 12 May 2011

I'm now officially a Masters Degree holder
Masters in Law (Corporate Law) 2011
*alhamdullilah*

With my family, parents & in laws :)

Outing with Ryan : Sunway Pyramid Cars 2 Exhibition

Note: Finally managed to upload some backdated pics. More to come soon.
Anyway, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan, May Allah bless our Ramadhan this time around in every way *insyallah*

Of Buah Hati Pengarang Jantung Mummy :)

2011-07-29T02:03:00.001-07:00

My baby munchkins is 19 weeks old today. Next week they’ll turn 20 weeks old (5 months) Alhamdullilah, we’re ½ way there.

Lan and I went to see Dr. De.Laila for our monthly checkup. Lan went straight from his office to register for me. He’s there by 1.50pm but we’re still lucky No14. The wait was kerazzyyy, Thank god Lan went to register first, because I only reached SDMC at 3.00pm. Finally, at around 5pm we managed to see the doctor.

It was worth the wait :) When doc came in she asked me how I was feeling, I told her that I feel great and she laughed and said “How I wish everyone coming in here feels that way”. Anyway my blood pressure, urine test, blood test etc is good. The baby scans were fine; Baby A has already turned to the right direction (head down) while Baby B is in a horizontal position. Doc said it is too early to worry as there’s plenty of time for them to turn.

I realized something, despite being twins; the babies have different personalities even in the womb. :p Baby A who’s also older by 2 days (measurement wise) is more active and outgoing than Baby B who’s mellower. Baby B is also more “pemalu” and because of the position it is harder to determine the sex. So as I’m typing this, I still have not found out the sexes of both babies yet. Hopefully I’ll find out during the detailed scan next month *insyallah*

I’m going into my 20 weeks and I’ve only gained *drum roll* 1.5kg. Crazy especially since I’m carrying twins, but both my munchkins is around 290grams which is the average weight for their age, my doctor is happy with my weight gained much to my surprised.

Her explanation is when you’re pregnant your metabolism rate doubles and the rate is even higher when you’re carrying multiples, that is why it is harder to gain weight. As long as I gain an average of 2-3 kg once I’m into my 24 month. She also reminded me just because I’m carrying double doesn’t mean that I should gain double the weigh (hahaha) so I should aim for 15kgs min (ideal) and 20kgs max.

I’m also more energetic now that I’m into my 2nd trimester :) I’m not as tired as I was last month. Siap rajin masak nasi ayam and serawa durian for the whole family last week.

This week rasa nak ajak hubby pergi jalan-jalan tengok barang baby. Since twins are usually delivered earlier at 37/38 weeks and the double load may not be as easy to carry around by the time I’m 7-8 months pregnant, we figured we better start baby shopping a bit earlier this time around.

A lil update on my biggie boy :)

Yesterday, due to the Ma.laysia vs Sing.apore game, the three of us turn in a bit early and lepak in the master bedroom to watch the game. The TV was blaring and we laid down the comforter so that Lan can lepak in front of the tv (konon feel la lagi dekat dgn padang haha) My son thought it was “party time” since mummy and daddy let him play outside his cot despite it being his bedtime. He went to the TV cabinet, picked his favorite “dat gum” DVD (i.e. Mater from Cars compilation DVD) and asked me to on the VCR. (siap ambikkan remote ok).

I told him “Sorry Ryan, not today. Today is daddy’s turn to watch the TV and he wants to watch football. We have to share so you can’t watch that now ok” He tried his luck again with his big brown eyes wide open “Mie, dat gum”. Trying to be firm, I told him “No baby, maybe tomorrow morning, now is time for bed, esok nak school, please put the CD back dekat rack” with muka disappointed he walked and put the DVD back and went to sleep.

This morning, he woke up a bit earlier. He did something that he NEVER did before, he opened his eyes, looked at me and gave my sleeve a tug “Mie..Mie.. tu tu” pointing at the TV. I was a bit confused at first when he continued “Dat gum Dat gum k” while jumping up and down the bed. Ya Allah, he remembered my promise to him last night. Lan and I just looked at each other a bit shocked but since I promised, I grudgingly allowed him to watch the DVD before school. Lesson learned?? Next time I better be more mindful of the things I promise junior hehe :)

Mr Cheeky Cheeks

2011-07-20T21:10:00.000-07:00

Ryan turns 19 months yesterday and everyday he does not fail to bring a smile to my face :) Lately he's been on his big boy routine :-

1.Ryan will wake up, slide down the bed and "tawaf" around the room, rearranging my lotions, hair gels etc. Later he will go to his "corner" to do his big business (he still won't use the potty to do No2. No1 ok pulak) when done, will tarik tangan daddy to the toilet. Once he is in the toilet, he will ask for his toothbrush and gosok gigi while one of us clean his up. Bila dah siap, will ajak daddy go down and wait for mummy to hand his morning snack of "cookie" or bread.

2. Once he reached his "school", he will insist on walking in himself carrying his own bag. When he reached the porch, he will turn to mummy/daddy, salam cium tangan and say "tata mie/die" and walked in without a backward glance. I rarely send him to school but the first time he did that to me, serious rasa "touched" and a bit "sad". Gosh, he's so independent :p

3.Balik from school if he's with atuk and nenek, memang jadi "raja" la. Nenek will feed him dinner and will spend 1/2 hour watching Upin and Ipin before continuing his "baby kecik" act with his grandparents until going home time :p

4. His routine with Lan and I is a bit different. Once dinner is ready, we will sit at the dinner table together and the little prince will feed himself (actually he INSIST on it), later is clean up time with daddy. He will scuttle to the bathroom, trying to take off his shirt AND pants when daddy says the magic word "Ryan jom pergi TOILET".

Once he's all dress and ready for bed, the little boss will DEMAND that we go upstairs. First he will come to me and say "jom", when I say "wait" he will pull his daddy to the direction of the stairs. If both of us are moving too slowly to his liking, he will walk directly to the tv and switch it off himself and declare "dah-jom". This will usually take place around 8.15-8.30pm :p (bossy kan? ikut perangai sapa lah tu)

5. Once we're in the room, he'll lepak on my bed, baca doa, play around a bit more and either fall asleep next to me and later be carried to his cot or he will insist to be put in his bed from the start.

Next day : Repeat routine :)

I want... I want... I want...

2011-07-17T23:46:00.000-07:00

Browsing for a dress to wear to Jessie's wedding when I stumbled upon this one. I have no idea who's the designer but I love the design.

In L.O.V.E, however, it is too late to bring the fabric to my tailor to recreate this for Raya. I'm planning on owning one in a different colour :p something in light pastel - mint green with pink embroideries maybe? GORGEOUS!! . Shall keep this in mind while buying fabric during our planned Jakarta trip in September :) *insyallah*

Thank god the dress is not readily available in store/online or I'll end up being one of those tacky LOA women who goes around trying to upstage the bride :p I don't know maybe I'm old fashioned but you just don't wear white to another person's wedding, right??

Of Dinner, Friends & Cleanliness

2011-07-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

I threw a small dinner party last Friday for Jessie and Cath. Technically, it was to celebrate Jessie’s wedding registration 2 weeks ago and to catch up with Cath who is back in Malaysia to attend her cousin’s wedding.

It was a bit of headache trying to decide on the menu because I wanted something simple but not too “blah”. With much help (in giving unwanted advices haha) from Lan, I decided on Roast Chicken, Mac & Cheese, Garden Salad, Potato PomPoms and ice cream. Jessie offered to get dessert so one less headache.

Anyway everything went smoothly, We managed make the house look presentable and get the food on the table on time. Ryan was on his best “host” behavior. He walked around the house being “cute” and showing off his toys to Cath and Jessie (tapi kedekut, tak nak bagi orang main haha). Ok-la he tak kacau his mummy and the aunts gossip :)

I had fun catching up, gossiping about people, meluahkan perasaan etc. Though we rarely see each other we talked as if no time has passed at all, I guess when you’ve been friends with someone so long the bond is a bit different.

Guilt
I felt kinda bad that I’m not able to help much which Jessie’s reception in August other than to give opinions/suggestions/advices. I can’t be there helping her like she did during my wedding (this girl took 3 days leave to help me b4 my reception, awesome, huh?). At the same time, I’m also not able to attend another important event of a very close friend held at the end of this month (sorry can’t mentioned name and occasion at the moment)

I feel horrible because these 2 people are very important to me. They are usually there to share happy occasion and hold my hand when I’m down, so it’s a bit of a bummer that I can’t do the same for them, due to leave constraint, family obligations and current pregnancy condition. Hate using all these reasons, but believe me, this is no EXCUSE and I will make it up to both of you, somehow huhuhu (yes, aku romantic kan :p)

I guess, I don’t believe in “quantity” when it comes to close friends, I go for “quality” and the one that I have, I cherish. Friends to gossip are easy to get, but friends who are sincere and able to share both your joy and sadness are almost impossible to find.

On cleanliness 2.0
Malas want to comment on the whole Ber.Sih 2.0 on Saturday, since I’m neither a supporter nor an objector. I only have one bone to pick. To those people who brought their underage kids (18 and below) to the rally, you are such an irresponsible lot. I respect your belief in the cause, but why drag your child along?

Do you think trying to educate them by “letting them see what kind of country they are living in” is really a good argument? Education can be done in 1000 different ways; you can show them youtube videos, online articles etc if you’re that hell bend in educating them.

Don’t drag them to rallies where they would be sprayed with water cannons, bombarded with tear gas, be pushed and shoved. Shit happens all the time, even in control environment, so if you bring them in the middle of mayhem and god forbid, a toddler fell from your grasp and is trampled on. Who do you blame?? The police? The government?

You knew what you’re going into, these poor kids DON’T even if they are 15 and above and able to think for themselves. Kalau dah patah tangan, takleh ambik exam, patah kaki takleh go to school, what exactly do you expect to gain out of it? Bodoh.

To those yang bawak toddlers, Child Welfare should take the kids away from you because you are plain IRRESPONSIBLE. If takde orang nak babysit, STAY AT HOME. Family SAFETY should always come first; Children are a gift from Allah. They are your RESPONSIBILITY and you should keep them SAFE!! Conclusion? Don’t be a bongok and please leave your kids at home the next time you choose to attend a rally.

Sekian, Terima Kasih!

Hubby wants a donkey....

2011-07-07T01:36:00.000-07:00

One of the biggest and most important purchase a parents expecting twins would be making is the stroller. We would need a double stroller suitable for infants, preferably lightweight, easy to navigate and collapsed. The stroller must also fit our car :p Our decision is also influence by the fact that we have a toddler who would still be needing his own stroller after the baby is born (at least for a good 1-2 years or so)

We've done several stroller "test drives" and have narrowed down some choices but we still have not made up our mind. Hubby is doing his own "research" because technically he is more invested in the choices of strollers as he's the one who would end up pushing it :p

This evening I got this sms from him "stroller Bug.aboo ni menarik jugak". I was a bit confused as I didn't know that Bug.aboo make double strollers, so I asked him further and was told that it is called "Bug.aboo Donkey" (hahaha what a name kan??) but he can't find the retail price

So I did a bit of checking of my own. The Donkey is a custom made double stroller which can accommodate 1(mono),2 (duo- different age children) or 2 (twin- same age children). The twin specs come with its own Stroller Base, 2 Tailored Fabric Sets, Duo Extension Set, and bassinet base. With the Donkey Twin, you can use the stroller with two bassinets, a bassinet and a stroller seat, or two stroller seats. Sounds impressive? It looks impressive too...

It comes in several other colours I think : Navy, light blue, hot pink, white etc. Knowing full well how pricey the Bug.aboo range is, I already expected the price to be exorbitant, but I was blown away when I finally found out the price :$1659 - not bad?? that is the price in US Dollars darling. Conversion to Malaysian Ringgit bring the cost to a cool RM4985.30 (minus delivery + tax) So in the end the stroller would set you back RM5k or much more

Hahaha nak muntah tengok the price, kan. I told Lan NO way darling unless we won the lottery or something and even then I would consider it 5000 times before saying yes :p

Tapi kesian hubby, he had his eyes/heart set on it (at least he did b4 finding out the price) hahaha...In the meantime on with the stroller search (and lets pray for a jackpot so we can buy the Donkey :p)

Wordless Wednesday #11

2011-07-06T00:14:00.001-07:00

One Roaring Nursery...

2011-06-30T19:03:00.000-07:00

Feels just like yesterday when I was planning Ryan's nursery and now it is time to set up a room for the twins :)

We're still in planning stages, but we've (or mainly ME) started with preparing the budget/researching themes and scouting for furniture/decorations. However, this time around we're going on a smaller scale because we've realised after going all out in decorating Ryan's room, that the babies won't be spending much time in their own room for the next few years :p

I think I spend more time in Ryan's room than he does (haha) he sleeps with us and he prefer his play area downstairs than going up to his room. So in the name of practicality we've decided to transform the guest room downstairs into a "mini nursery".

When you're expecting twins, the first thing you have to consider is mobility. I guess carting 2 babies up and down during the day for naps/nappy change is not as practical as it is with a singleton. The room is near to the kitchen (for feeding), toilet (for nappy change/baths) living room (for mummy and daddy to watch TV when babies taking their nap :p) and near but does not in any way encroached on Abang Ryan's play/nap area (thou shall not DISRUPT the little prince routine in any way : babies or no babies :p )

We have not discovered the babies gender yet, but I'm leaning heavily towards a "Safari" theme nursery for the following reasons :-

We already have animal theme rockers + mobile + art deco

It is gender neutral - boys + girls can relate to animals and Ryan would be able to enjoy it even if his sibling turn out to be girls

One of the easiest theme to pull off

Some of my fave designs

I'm in love with this Twins Decal : which you can easily print and frame yourself :)

White furnitures. What's not to Love love love...

I love the colour combination of green + yellow, green + pink, Green+ cream

It is to early to decide, and I would probably change my mind but me kinda like the idea for the moment :)

Wordless Wednesday #10

2011-06-28T21:11:00.001-07:00

On No 2 & 3 :)

2011-06-28T01:46:00.000-07:00

I’m going into my 15 weeks of pregnancy and Alhamdullilah everything is going well. As of now my pregnancy symptoms consist of:-

• No major morning sickness (which is a total bliss as twins pregnancy usually results in double pregnancy syndromes due to the higher level of hormones productions)
• Some backpain/Minor headache: My once a month pregnancy massages do provide some relieve since I’m not allowed painkillers and medicated ointment.
• Little weight gain/ not much appetite: Well I have the same problem with Ryan, so am not worried. We’ll see what the doc has to say about this next week. Anyway though my weight is the same, my tummy is already expanding. So I take that as a good sign *insyallah*
• Major exhaustion: I get tired more easily, I guess it is expected since I’m carrying two babies instead of one + taking care of a very active toddler + housework. I’m letting go some of my chores to hubby (thanks for helping, sayang) though I do sometimes get annoyed when things are not done my way that I end up redoing it again (control issues haha)

As for pregnancy care, I’m just doing the usual: eating pre-natal vitamins & folic acids, drinking copious amount of air zam-zam, I have 6 small meals instead of 3 big ones since I can’t stomach big meals, and though I try to relax more I do limit unnecessary naps+ sitting on my ass for too long (sluggishness is not good for a pregnant body).

Lan and I managed to score some cheap baby stuff at the Peddypeck Warehouse sales in Pandamaran last week. I malas nak beli but my mum was on my case on getting baby stuff. Trust me if it was up to her the whole nursery would already be furnished despite not knowing the babies gender. So to pacify her we bought a play cot for my mum’s place, a Fisher price rocker, some swaddling blanket and pillows. I drew the line on clothes though since I want my babies to be dress in gender appropriate clothes.

As for gender preference, I know Lan wanted more boys because he’s afraid of having a (2) mini Far running around (haha) as for me I seriously, honest to god has no preference especially after reading all the complications that is usually associated with twins delivery. As long as I gave birth to healthy babies, I’m thankful to Allah :) Looking at the bright side, two more boys means I’ll get back to my pre-pregnancy weight faster, if they are both girls I’ll get new shopping buddies (like I need more reason to shop haha) and if I get a boy & a girl even the better :p

As usual closer to my check up date, I tend to feel more anxious, especially since my check-up date has been reschedule later due to doctor unavailability. It would be real cool if I can buy that ultrasound machine and look at the little darlings every day.

Anyway I think hubby is feeling a bit left out yesterday, as a part of a new routine to ease in the arrival of twinnies, every night before bed I will tell Ryan “I love you baby and I love you first”. I’ve been doing it for a week but yesterday was the first time I said it in front of Lan. He was like “apahal, how about me?” I wanted to laugh but he looked so serious. So I said “Of course I love YOU first dummy, but I’m referring to the siblings, would be weird if I go I love you second, third and last kan” He just made a face..

Boys!!!

My little firecracker...

2011-06-19T22:27:00.000-07:00

Dear Ryan,

You're 18 months old today. In 6 months time, you're going to turn 2 and become a big brother *insyallah* It is so funny that 18 months ago, you're this tiny little baby, dependent on daddy and I to take care of you but now we can't survive ONE day without you around.

Sometimes you'll act all biggie not wanting any assistance from me with feeding and insisting on putting your own clothes. You'll go out for "big boy" breakfast with nenek and atuk every Saturday leaving me at home without batting an eyelash. You get into this battle of the wills with daddy when you refuse to clean up your toys or when you mumble to yourself in retaliation whenever we ask you to do something you don't like. During those times I'll be asking to myself, "Ya Allah, when did he grow up so fast??"

But times when you insist on sleeping in my arms, when we sit in front of the TV together drawing silly pictures, when you come to me to complaint that you step on your toys with that cute little pout of yours or when you'll approach me every morning, with the sweetest smile on your face, kissing me awake so that you can get your cookie, reminded me that you will grow up no matter how desperately I want to stop time, but in my heart you will still be my baby :) My numero uno!!

I love you Ryan Daniel, you should know that by now since I tell you that a million times a day heheheh...

"what mischief shall I come with next??"

Ryan's latest obsession : Disney CARS. He goes around the house saying "vroooom" "kachoww" and "yesh"+hand in the air gesture

Hehehe he "kidnapped" my shorts and insisted on putting it on...

Happy Father's Day

2011-06-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do

This Sunday is Father’s Day. So I would like to take this chance to wish Happy Father’s Day to my 2 fave daddies in the whole wide world.

To my dad, you’re the greatest ayah any girl could ask for. You’ve always been there for Along and me. Listening to our mundane and nonsensical complaints, ready with advice (even for the times when we don’t ask for it). Inspiring and supporting us through everything, putting up with us when we’re being total brats (Along of course, not me :p everyone knows I’m the angelic one hehe) and for always going all out to make life easier for your baby girls even though we’re all grown up and have families of our own.

Thanks for also extending the love to Ryan, who no doubts adore you as much as I do (maybe even more) I don’t know how it is possible, but you’ve spoil him more than you’ve spoilt me (and we all know I’m spoilt rotten). For every good and bad memory, we appreciate everything you and mama have done for us and we love you so much.

I looked up to you so much, that I secretly set a criteria for my future husband to be modeled after you :p Before Lan and I got married, I gave him a long lecture about how I expect my “future kids” to be treated and what kind of father I expected him to be. Well, he’s no you but he’s not bad after all…

So hubby, you know how much Ryan, The Twinnies and I love you. You’re a great daddy and in time you’ll even be better. You can see how much Ryan admires you already, since he follows you around everywhere you go: p I bet if we ever have daughters they’ll adore you as much as I adore my ayah.

To both daddies. Happy Father’s Day!!! We love you branches and may Allah bless you always :) *muackz*

Can't say I'm happy...

2011-06-12T23:27:00.000-07:00

First it was the rise of the RON 97 petrol. The rationale was if you can afford expensive and luxury car you don’t deserve to be subsidize by the government ( quite a rationale point though a lot of people driving cheap national cars was using RON97 as it is better in the long run but let’s disregard the point).

Then there were rumors that the price of RON 95 will increase, however after much grubmlings the “assessment” was set back to a later date in respect of the rakyat’s wishes or whatever. Yeay!! Everyone is happy but not for long because ironically another announcement soon came a few weeks after that, the electricity tariff would be raised. Bonus points?? If your bill is no more than RM77 you won’t be affected AT ALL (they did these interviews and all to show that MOST people won’t even feel the pinch. Ooookayy)

2 weeks later they increase the price of Diesel, most people don’t even squeak as these would probably just affect lorry drivers/manufacturer etc. Whatever, right? Government went all out with these announcements stating that they vouched that the rakyat’s won’t be burdened by price hikes..blah..blah..blah.. and now I heard ASTRO is planning on a repackaging and there might be a SLIGHT increase of prices starting next month.

Other than that Ryan’s school fees has increased by RM50, which make sense as the rooms are fully air-conditioned and they prepare the kids food themselves (aircond= electricity and food prices= raise in diesel=raise in transportation fees). The price of his milk have also increased from RM39 (650g) to RM42 (same rationale as above)

There seems to be a lot of “new menu” being introduced in restaurants lately. Some offers “cheaper set options” but if you look at the portion it is half of what it should be. I know for a fact that TG.IF has increased the price of its drinks and some of its individual’s dishes (but the portion is sadly smaller :() Eat at cheaper eateries? Well I went to one of my favorite cheap and cheerful kedai nasi campur on Friday and trust me; I’m paying at least RM2 more than 2 months ago.

I know someone is going to suggest that I should cook and eat more at home, well check out your local groceries shop/pasar (I’m not talking Cold Storage here but SSW Pasar Borong Sg Udang standard) the price of fresh chilies, garlic, vegetables have all risen. Bring RM50 to the store and see how much raw food item you can bring back home.

There’s no point in complaining I know. We should practice “perbelanjaan berkhemah” and “jangan membazir” etc. I know my family and I are not going to go hungry anytime soon (insyallah) and we even have the little “extras” for fun stuff like toys, entertainment, vacations etc (alhamdullilah) but the rising prices do impact us the middle class families on some level. Simple math lah kan, when prices of things goes up but your salary stays the same = less “worms” to take home to the chickies lah kan?

So dear PM, The economy is affecting us the 1.Malay.sia low and middle income families: p acknowledge it and do something about it. Don’t pretend that everything is all fluff. Thank you!!

The worst kept SECRET (Part 2)

2011-06-06T20:20:00.000-07:00

This is a bit of a déjà vu. Feels like yesterday when I made the same announcement via blog: p

Guess what people. I’m 3 months pregnant *alhamdullilah*Anyway the pregnancy came as a huge surprised to me and Lan. Wasn’t expecting it at all but we’re excited nevertheless.

I found out when I was about 3 weeks into the pregnancy. I had the same feeling as when I was pregnant with Ryan. The overeating, crazy mood swings, that “I just know I’m pregnant” feeling. So a few days before my period is due, I decided to take the test and it was positive.

I was shocked and a bit numb. “Is it too fast?” “Will we be able to cope?” “What’s going to happen to Ryan?” – All this thoughts went through my mind. I was in a daze for a few hours but in the end I pulled myself together went home and told Lan. My husband was over the moon with the news of course. After discussing with Lan on our future, I felt so much better and started making plans for the new nursery: p (haha such a short attention span)

But I guess the “surprise” is not over yet. 6 weeks into the pregnancy I had to go for another checkup for a reconfirmation (as the first scan was done at 3 weeks, too early to determine things) imagine our surprise when we saw this in the ultrasound machine…

Yes people. There’s two sacs, which indicates FRATERNAL TWINS (as opposed to identical: p) Masyallah, I can’t describe my feeling when I found out. Lan and I got all giggly. We’re beyond shock, excited, happy and nervous.

There’s no direct history of twins in both family so the babies is a bit of a “miracle” to us: p there’s of course a lot of theories on how the twins was created but instead of going through all the scientific and medical notes I’ve gathered, the simplest and precise answer is, we got the babies due to Allah’s will. Fullstop. Alhamdullilah we’re blessed.

Anyway, we brought in the big guns last week. We went to SJMC to seek Dr De.Laila advice. Gosh was she excited. Saw the babies’ heartbeat, the skull and backbone has formed, you can see the babies twirling and waving. They are so much more active as compared to Ryan when he’s at the same age: p Tapi they are so tiny. Adorable just like me (haha)

The biggest hurdle during my first trimester was flu and infection. I was sick for 2 whole week. Nose was dripping non-stop, coughing and there’s so much phlegm that I can’t even eat properly without wanting to vomit (TMI,haha) Lost 3 kgs in the process. Doc said I needed rest so was on MC last week.

I’m feeling so much better. Other than the flu, Alhamdullilah the pregnancy has been good to me so far. No major morning sickness etc. I do get tired more easily. Well carrying 2 babies will do that to you I guess. Hubby is trying to get me to take it easy. But you know me, always on the go and can’t sit still :p

As for Ryan’s reaction…. I showed him a picture of the babies ultrasound referring them as “Upin and Ipin” after his favorite twin cartoon character, and asked if the babies can borrow his toys when they arrive. His reply?? “NO!” while vigorously shaking his head. Oh well!!!

Wordless Wednesday #9

2011-06-01T01:25:00.000-07:00

Shhhhhhhh

2011-05-30T01:42:00.000-07:00

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead

I love this song :p
A secret is very difficult to keep.
Especially the extra juicy ones
You can't help but go to the other person whispering
"swear you won't tell anyone"
Ironically 30 minutes after you made the same promise to someone else
Hahahaha....

The best solution? Just keep it to yourself
If people ask you later why they weren't inform in the first place the perfect answer would be...

I didn't tell you in the first place because I don't want you to know :p

Of Ryan and Nenek :p

2011-05-26T00:46:00.000-07:00

I have the flu :( and I desperately wants to go home...

Ryan caught the flu from nenek, naturally it is passed to me. With all the food sharing, snot wiping etc. On top of his flu, his got one of his mild asthma attack when he was at home alone with Nenek on Friday while I was at work. My mum panicked (drama as always) and demanded that we go to the hospital first thing when I came home.

Upon checking his heart rate/breathing pattern etc I decided to give him his Ventolin instead and he was breathing better after that, but the flu prevented recovery. I can hear phlegm building up in his chest, so I decided to pump it out using his nasal aspirator and manually vomit it out of him (grossest thing ever but you got to do what you got to do). Ryan managed to sleep for 5 hours straight that night but was down with a mild fever on Monday so my dad and I brought him to his paed.

Nothing serious, upper tract was clear, no infection, breathing a bit rapid, so the doc and I discussed on putting Ryan on preventive medication to minimize further asthma attacks, on top of his normal Ventolin (used as a reliever during attacks) he's on Budesonide (a type of preventive inhaler for the next 3 months). His flu improved almost immediately but the effect of Budesonide for his asthma can only be seen after 3-4 weeks. Insyallah all will be well.

Anyway, I wanted to talk about my mum's reaction actually. She was on my case over my choice of medication, treatment etc. and it was driving me nuts. Since Lan is not around to back me up (biasalah when the menantu is around, my mum is more "PC" with her opinions :p) , my mum was bugging me to go to our normal GP for nebulizer (wth??), imparting all sorts of opinions from her colleagues on treatments etc (like I care what Dr si Ayu tu buat to her baby-whoever she is) and reprimanding me for my lack of shall I say "action" (I was a cool cucumber hehe

I love my mum but she tends to go overboard when it comes to Ryan and she take it so personally when I don't listen to her. I know she brought us up well and perfect (haha) but sometimes she just need to let me do my job. Macamla I will do anything to jeopardize Ryan's health.

I grow up with half of the family being asthmatic. My dad, my sis even I have mild asthma. I've seen my cousin turn blue when he was about 6 months old. If anything, I've learn a few very important thing from my aunt who was a doctor -THOU SHALL NOT PANIC, every child is different and do your own research.

I guess it is normal, every child is their parent's baby, and my mum is finding it hard to accept that her youngest daughter is a mum in her own right too. Maybe I'll be like this when my children are all grown up, who knows? I should be thankful that my mum cares enough, kan :p I know some grandparents won't even bother hehehe

I'm not complaining (not really hahaha) but I'm ecstatic that Lan is home today and I can go back to my own crib :p As for Ryan who dah "berlemak" duduk ngan atuk and nenek for 2 weeks, get ready to reenter the Azlan-Farhanna boot camp where bedtime is at 9pm and no such thing as endless Elmo/Cars marathon *hahaha evil laugh*

Wordless Wednesday #8

2011-05-18T02:08:00.000-07:00

Ryan Reynolds

RyanGosling

Ryan Giggs

The Most Gorgoeus Ryan of them all : Muhammad Ryan Daniel :)Love you, 15 more minutes when I can rush home and give you a big HUG and loads kisses...

Does not even count as an update...

2011-05-18T01:54:00.000-07:00

I should really update my blog,kan?

Despite loads of events happening in the past 2 weeks : Mother's Day, Graduation Day and My BIRTHDAY. It was ALL awesome *alhamdullilah* but I can't find the energy to post pictures + provide commentary on it. I'm just plain LAZY!!! plus Lan brought my laptop to his induction so I can't edit pics.(yes, hubby is going to be away for the next 10 days, so it's a bit depressing :p)

I know I owe this page pics + post on :
1. Lan's 30th Bday celebration
2. Family trip to PD
3. Convocation Day
4. My Birthday post :p

Will blog on it soon. I promise. Definitely.Maybe. We'll see :)

Getting It Right!!

2011-05-10T20:37:00.000-07:00

I was watching Glee last night when the song came up...What can I say? I love the lyrics :) I know the circumstance for when "Rachel wrote the song to reflect her relationship with Finn" is not the same.. But that is the best thing about "words" - you can interpret it however you want :p

Trying to give/be/offer the best of you is a very tiring job, and when your best intentions does not turn out the way it should, it just became very frustrating. C'est La Vie :) Just gotto smile and bear with it...

Enjoy the lyrics...

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

CHORUS
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

CHORUS

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

Not So-Wordless Wednesday #7

2011-05-04T00:46:00.000-07:00

Save the date: You're welcome to the Royal Wedding viewing party at the Azlan-Farhanna household on 29/04/2011

Mummy and Baby Watching Royal Wedding together-gether

My little prince charming

Heheh this is no Philip Treacy Fascinator but I kinda like it :p
Just the right "piece" for a RW observer

Of course he will copy EVERYTHING that I do.. hahahah

Of Answered Prayers with a Twist...

2011-04-21T20:41:00.000-07:00

I’m kind of busy with work at the moment and to tell you the truth I’m not really in the mood to blog. Something has been bugging me for months and lately I’ve allowed myself to wallow in self pity. It totally triggered my BD PreProitis Smurfing Ephilitis symptoms (haha inside joke: p) funnily enough someone totally unexpected i.e. a male colleague of no importance, notices the change and confronted me about it in a jest. It got me thinking though, why should I feel sorry for myself?

I guess as human we always want things that we can’t have or not meant to have “yet”. I should just be more patient. Maybe it acts as a sign that I should start thinking of alternatives and not be scared to step out of my comfort zone. I realized that great things always happen when I go through a more “challenging” road. Faith is the key.

Yes, I’m rambling but who cares, insignificant toads (chewah) are not meant to understand this. Sorry but I just hate it when “strangers” pretended that they know me just by reading a few blog post a week.

Anyway enough with the negativity. I shall focus on the good things instead. I’m going to turn 28 next month and Alhamdullilah I’ve fulfilled 4/5 of my personal goals of the things I should do before turning 30. I should be thankful; I should be down on my knees performing sujud syukur all the time, for all of the things I’m blessed with

1. When I was 25 and newly engaged I dreamt of starting a family with Lan and now 3 years later I have a beautiful family with a loving husband and a gorgeous son. I also have great parent and in laws and also siblings who I can always depend on. What more can a girl ask for?
2. Lan and I managed to purchase our own house at a young age. Alhamdullilah should anything happen to us at least Ryan would have an asset to call his own. It is not much but it is ours :)
3. After 2 years of hard work, tears and grueling task of balancing between work, studies, marriage, pregnancy and a baby, I’m going to attend my convocation this May where I’ll be receiving a piece of paper stating that I’ve completed my Masters in Corporate Law. It wasn’t easy but I did it...
4. I’ve gone for my Umrah.

Some may view this list as a “braglist” but when I look at this list I feel ashamed for failing to feel thankful in the first place. This post shall act as a reminder of all of my answered prayers.

Speaking of answered prayers, one of the wishes I made during Umrah came true. Well it was an improved version of the wish, a bit unexpected but very much welcome nevertheless. The gift also came with a “test”. So I hope I can successfully endure it. Alhamdullilah and here’s to change :)

Consider this....

Character cannot be developed in ease & quiet. Only through experience of trial & suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, & success achieved.

Wordless Wednesday #6

2011-04-20T00:09:00.000-07:00

Sneak preview to hubby's 30th B-day "party" on 17 April 2011

Umrah Trip (Final)

2011-04-13T19:57:00.000-07:00

Ok my final Umrah post. This post is mostly on how an Umrah is perform :) When you go for your Umrah trip, you can actually perform your umrah more than once. Some people even managed to perform their umrah 3 times a day (such dedication and determination).

To me umrah is a very physical form of ibadah, as compared to prayers, fasting and zakat etc which I think is more spiritual in nature.You have to be mentally strong as well, having to brace the throngs of people, hot sun, etc. At the end of the day you'll learn one very important lesson which is PATIENCE

But now I understood why my parents was telling my sister and I to perform our haj as soon as we can. I guess they have a very good point, when you're younger the "rukuns" is physically easier for you to perform.

For example, on the day when we didn't bring Ryan along, we managed to finish our tawaf and saie within 1 1/2 hours. The older jemaah sometimes take close to 3-4 hours to finish the same course ( I know it is not a competition about who can finish first, I'm just making a comparison that when you are younger, tawaf/saie wouldn't be so challenging)

*Insyallah* once dah cukup duit we'll go ok, hubby :) Neways, there is 5 things that you need to do to complete your umrah:-

First: You have to Niat Umrah at a designated place (they called it Miqat) and the place has to be out of Tanah Haram (out of Mecca). You have to be in your ihram at this point (guys in white sheets and women in any attire covering aurat- though it is sunnat to wear white)The nearest place is in Masjid Tanaim (about 7 km away). You can reach there by taxi or vans.

Second: You have to complete 7 rounds of tawaf around kaabah. You can do it continuously or you can stop after each round (all depends on your capability) after finishing your tawaf you are to perform sembahyang sunnah preferable in front of Hijr Ismail.

Third: Saie. You have to make walk around Safa and Marwaa' Hills 7 times. Again do it at your own pace while reading the designated doa.

Fourth: Tahallul. Jemaah must cut a bit of their hair to complete your umrah (some guys will shave all their hair off) and after that you'll be out of Ihram

Fifth: You must do everything in order.

Lan and Ryan in their ihram

@Tanaim mosque

Tawaf around Kaabah

Safa' & Marwaa' Hills- Saie

*Alhamdullilah* Finally done with sharing all of our experience in Mecca and Madinah. *insyaallah* panjang umur and with opportunity would LOVE to visit again :)

BaBy ClaSsEs : KiaSu MumS GeN Y :)

2011-04-08T01:22:00.000-07:00

*taking a break from umrah post*

Ryan’s Gym.boree(GB) class is ending, and we’re trying to figure out if we should continue with his classes. Ryan has been going for G.B since he was 3 months old, now, he’s up to Stage 3 in play class and he’s in Stage 1 music class.

I love the instructors, classes are interactive equip with great set ups and I think Ryan is able to make a lot of friends there. My only problem is I think Ryan has kind of outgrown the play class. He started early on his Stage 2 so he has been spending every week on the same play gym for the past 8 months. I can’t blame him for being bored.

We have just started on the music class, which pretty much is a dancing class + instrument playing (mostly maracas and tambourine) and a bit of singing (on the mother’s part mostly) Truth be told I find the class a tad boring. We pretty much do the dancing + singing part bit at home every night. On teaching him to play instruments, well after going for 12 years of music classes, I’m more than qualified to teach Ryan myself (or my mum would tell you that :p)

I was told that the art programme is really good but Ryan can only join it in 3 months time when he turns 18 months. So do I reassigned him NOW for the play + music class or do I take him out and later rejoin the art class or find some other center for his classes? But then again ART CLASSES?? I think I got that area more than covered (yes masuk bakul moment)

Decisions…decisions… The fact that I’m LAZY to drive all the way to Bangsar at 8.30am on a Saturday morning is also influencing my decision to not go ahead with GB at the moment and the RM2K yearly fees. Since I’m not impressed with Tum.ble Tots and Kid.Sportz curriculum I think I shall keep on looking for other alternative for the time being.

Maybe I should save the money, buy Ryan the play gyms set which ranges from RM200-RM500, put it in my garden and invite his cousins to come play with him. Hahaha and I will have RM1.5K left to buy shoes.

Anyways I’ve bought him some new books and flashcards for his “classes” at home. We started reading before he goes to bed and before going to school every morning. This morning he made me read the same book twice. And I will be introducing him to the PlayDoh that Imran got him for his birthday *yes finally* (before this takut dia makan haha)

So baby, bye bye Gymbo (at least for da moment) and hello "teacher mummy" and "headmaster daddy" :p

P/S: if you know of any Playgym or toddler classes around Subang, Shah Alam and Klang do drop me a comment ok.

PP/S: I’m thinking of organizing a playgroup for toddlers among friends maybe once a month where both mummy + babies can socialize + main2 for an hour or so. Rasa2 ada yang interested ke nak join? plan je la bila nak buat pun tak sure lagi...

Umrah Trip (Part 2)

2011-04-06T19:51:00.000-07:00

On the 21 March 2011 we travelled from Madinah to Mekah. We did our miqat & Niat Umrah at Bir Ali Mosque. The trip was a bit "challenging". The bus driver took the wrong turn and a 2 hour bus ride turn into a 5 hours ride instead. Ryan who was not feeling well, was shivering in the bus and refuses to sleep as it wasn't comfortable. He was in a very bad mood.

We reached Mecca around 2 am (7 am Malaysian time), as we're already in our "ihram" we decided to go ahead and finish our Umrah once we stepped down the bus. Everyone was a bit tired and cranky at that moment but we pushed on.

I swear to Allah upon seeing Kaabah for the first time, all the exhaustion totally left my body. I seriously can't take my eyes off this beutiful structure in front of me. To think that all the great Prophets i.e. Nabi Ibrahim a.s, Nabi Ismail a.s and Nabi Muhammad s.a.w stood on the same grounds before, made me feel totally insignificant. Rasa nak nangis pun ada.

We perform our umrah and managed to complete it before the subuh prayers (around 5am), later we went back to the hotel and sleep. By 12pm (Zuhur prayers) I can see that Ryan is not doing to well. Lack of rest due to all the travel the night before set in, high temperature, wheezing, coughing all in a package.

I was scared as we're in a foreign country, with no real access to paediatrician and clinics. Alhamdullilah I had all of Ryan's medication with me, and we had this really nice Wak (the tour caterer) to drive us to the clinic's the very next day. My doa' was answered and Ryan got better almost instantaneously with the help of antibiotics and non-stop prayers :) Well you know what they say about "wishes" made in front of Kaaba' *insyallah* it would be granted. You just got to have faith :)

The shops are right outside our hotel. CRAZY ok :p

27 March 2011- Ziarah around Mecca

First place of visit : Jabal Tsur where Gua Hira' is situated.

As we all know, Gua Hira' is the place where our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W received his first relevation

Ryan just woke up, saw the camel and is in awe...

Somewhere out there, The hills to the cave is too steeped so we didn't go up. Jabar Rahmah in Arafah. The place where Adam and Eve met after Allah punished them to 300 years of separation for eating the forbidden fruit. They say if you're finding for your jodoh, go up here and doa' for your prince/princess charming :p insyallah you will find him/her soon after. More camels, and Ryan geram and actually pegang one ;p

Masjid Jarannah- where we Miqat for my 4th Umrah

In front of the front entrance of Masjidil Haram

With zee family...

Our 40 Riyal Burger King. Food are very expensive in Saudi. Tapi sapa suruh mengada nak makan, right??

Al- Bait Tower/ Shopping Mall. There's some cool shopping place. Didn't really shop much here as I'm more attracted to the street bazaar. But I love the shoes in Payless (crazy selection) and they have nice clothes in this boutique called Femi9/NEXT etc

The tower clock face would be white in the day

and would turn green at night :)

Cold and windy nights in Mecca,This was taken after our Tawaf Sunat around 9pm. Ryan social kat Mecca balik hotel late almost every night :p

28 March 2010

Ladang Unta/Camel Farm

There's some camel roaming around and you can get some fresh camel milk *yucks* Suffice to say I didn't bother trying.

Anyway, i know he's my son and all but he looks so cute lah in the picture *hahah* Mr Rosy Cheeks :p

The remains of the old Hudaibiah Mosque, where the Hudaibiah Agreement between the Muslims and Quraish Mecca was signed. The agreement was to discuss Muslims entry into Mecca to perform their haj yearly.

My sis in law goofing around

Lan and Atirah (sibling no 5)

Our Last day in Mecca.

Coming Soon: Last post on our Umrah Trip :)

Umrah Trip (Part 1)

2011-04-05T23:49:00.000-07:00

I'm going to divide the Umrah Trip into 2-3 posts. There are 100++ pics from 2 cameras so you can imagine my laziness to edit + upload :p More pictures are on FB so check it out... The photos in this entry are the ones taken in Madinah where we stayed for 3 days (19 March 2011 to 21 March 2011) So enjoy the pictures/history/comments/captions etc...

19-20 March 2011

In front of our hotel in Madinah- It is called Hassan Palace and is about 10-15 minutes walk away from Masjid Nabawi

He insisted on walking everywhere on his own nowadays :p

With my in laws minus Lan

Ryan and his aunts View of Masjid Nabawi at night. Gorgeous right :) One of the many mosque entrances

Huge umbrella's to shield people from the sun...

View of Masjid Nabawi in the day. There are about 100 small stalls and shops at a nearby arcade selling jubah, shoes, ornaments etc. Plenty of variety and cheap. If you're not intent on prayers memang will lose your head over shopping.

Surprisingly I only bought one jubah for moi and mostly stuff for people. I bet Lan was proud (surprised?) over my self restrained :p my sis + bro in law serious beli bagful of pretty things

Lan and his siblings minus Ashraff- Yes there are EIGHT of them :p

My son is so photogenic UNLIKE the father (please refer to my wedding album for verification) hahaha

21 March 2011

Masjid Kubah- This is the first mosque build by Rasulullah SAW in Madinah. You're encouraged to perform your solat sunat 2 rakaat at this mosque as to follow Sunnah Nabi

"Whoever makes ablutions at home and then goes and prays in the Mosque of Quba, he will have a reward like that of an 'Umrah." This hadith is reported by Ahmad ibn Hanbal, Al-Nasa'i, Ibn Majah and Hakim al-Nishaburi (Source from Wiki)

There are stalls selling shawls and little trinkets all over Madinah/Mecca. Most of the stuff is under 10Riyal (about RM9 ish) great from souvenirs

@ Ladang Tamar/ Tamar Farm.

The tamar/kurma here is expensive so people don't usually buy them but you can see the Tamar tree/seed up close. Anyway there's A LOT of tourist on that particular day so I didn't even bother going in the shops and stayed outside to camwhore instead.

I think those are the Kurma seedlings.

Ryan started having fever on our last day in Madinah. Weather was crazy hot in the day and cold at night but like the little trooper that he is, he followed us around with little fuss.

Bukit Uhud. This is where Uhud Battle happens. The Muslim soldiers lost that day as the defied Rasulullah order to stay in place after the battle. Morale of the story? Always listen to your leaders and don't defy commands *hmmm*

In front of the grave site of Saidina Hamzah (Nabi Muhammad's Uncle) and other syahid Muslim warriors

This my dear is the "Magnetic Hills of Madinah aka Valley of Jinns" . The magnate pulls can power the bus to move without starting the engine. Kinda cool but scary at the same time :p

Eating the creamiest vanilla ice cream EVER. They probably use camel's milk for the ice cream :p

@ Masjid Qiblatain

This is the mosque with two qiblats. At one time the Muslims perform their prayers facing Jurusalem but one day during prayers the prophet received a relevation from Allah to face Kaabah as a qiblat instead, so he turn during prayers.

The first 2 rakaat was perform facing Jurusalem and the final two was facing Kaabah hence the name Qiblatain

Pasar Kurma- Kurma , nuts and candies heaven :)

That's all for our Madinah Trip, Mecca journey coming soon.....

To be continued....

I'm Back....

2011-04-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

Alhamdullilah we have safely arrived home last Wednesday evening (30 March 2011). The trip was a lovely one. I will update in sections once I find the time to edit the pictures accordingly. Currently, there are too many pictures to put in FB and Blog.

Anyway a little update on Ryan (since that is mostly what people been asking anyway) He celebrated his 15 weeks birthday in Madinah. He’s actively walking and “talking” as of late and I have to say he seem to be more keen on making friends, especially with boys around his age or older. I can see that he’s more independent and love doing his “own stuff” at home.

Despite the skepticism from several quarters on my decision for bringing Ryan along for our Umrah Trip, I have to say I think I did the right thing because:-

1. Lan and I get to spend time with our precious baby boy.

2. Muslims believe that Mecca/Madinah to be the holiest place on earth. I believe that bringing Ryan to the city would insyallah affect him in a good way somehow. The results may not be immediate but I have faith that it will make a difference.

3. We’re able to expose Ryan to other cultures, food, people etc. Some say he may be too young to understand. I say never underestimate a child no matter how oblivious he seems to his surrounding :p

I was a bit peeved on a comment made by a total stranger on how bringing a toddler for umrah is a “torture”. In her words “seksa”, well I guess when your intention (niat) is well, Allah will help us, I have to say that Ryan behaved himself (as any 1 year old would) during the trip. First of all we had no problem in flight (and NO I didn’t drug him in any way haha) Ryan played and slept most of the time.

We even brought him for umrah (in which he managed to follow a few times) and prayers. He was able to follow us through several “tawaf” and “saie” rounds and alhamdullilah without a show of tantrums or crying. Of course it wasn’t easy and I salute Lan for carrying him around 90% of the time during umrah but like I always say when there’s a will, there’s a way :)

I think Ryan enjoyed his time in Mecca/Madinah. The Arabs really like little kids. He can’t go anywhere without at least getting one “cheek pinch”. He received free cookies, chocolates, sweets, money and a small baby ring from strangers.

The money part is a bit funny, Ryan was sitting in his stroller with his Uncle Yusry, when he decided to “perform” Yusry told me he was waving/clapping hands at stranger and the next thing we know there was dollar bills on his stroller(haha). Another time while Ryan was walking between Safa and Marwah, a Turkey woman came and swoop him from behind and gave Ryan a big hug. Lan and I was shocked. Thank god I didn’t start screaming and beating the old lady with my water bottle :p

The only problem I’m currently facing is that Ryan’s sleep/plays schedule is currently messed up due to the 5 hours time difference. He’ll randomly wake up around 12am-2 pm and will start calling us to play with him or he will bang his cot asking for attention. It will probably take some time to reestablish his sleep schedule so Lan and I will need to persevere at the moment. Serious datang kerja mata gam :p

Ryan found his milk formula container and silently ate his milk powder in corner. It was too late when I cought him *sigh*

Ryan and Friends...

A Very Special Trip :)

2011-03-15T01:11:00.000-07:00

Lan, Ryan and myself would be leaving for Madinah and later Mecca to perform our Umrah this Friday (18 March 2011) *insyallah* till the end of the month. Lan's parents and his siblings will be accompanying us on this trip.

I've been wishing to perform my Umrah since forever especially after I got married.I actually made plans to go for our umrah in 2009 but too bad we didn't have enough annual leave left to go. I guess Allah has better plan for us, true enough going this year means going with Ryan which made this trip so much more special :)

I'm so thankful that Allah have been listening to my prayers. Anyway we'll be gone till the end of March 2011. Please pray for our safe return and for a smooth journey to perform our "ibadah" in Mecca and Madinah. My main concern is of course Ryan, but *insyallah* I'm sure my baby is going to behave himself :) You're so lucky sayang, you're only one and is already able to visit the Kaabah. *alhamdullilah* rezeki Ryan sangat murah.

Ya allah, I'm so excited beyond words, trust me as I'm typing this, my mind is already so far away :p (I even put on a daisy.path tracker to count the days ;p) So that's all for this week, just informing in case you're wondering why I'm suddenly missing on FB/Blog or Twitter :p Stay safe everyone, take care and I will miss you guys branches (or at least SOME of you haha)

The one on Buble'...

2011-03-14T19:28:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday (130311) I went to the most awesome concert EVER!! Micheal Buble's concert in Stadium Malawati, Shah Alam to be precise. Our seats were right in the middle, and quite far back from the main stage but I had so much fun, it doesn't seem to matter.

Buble' is an awesome performer. His voice is as sexy and beautiful as you hear on the radio, it may surprise you to know that he is actually a pretty good dancer and the man in HILARIOUS.

His introduction of his band member got the fans rolling on our backs laughing. Can't believe that he actually duped us into believing that one of his band members are from Malaysian and got everyone applauding secara "over". Hahaha His Glee, Aladin ( I can't believe he actually sang "a whole new world") and his Micheal Jackson impersonation is so spot on :p )

All in all I had an awesome night, and I have to say that the concert was worth every penny :) Please come back next year, I would so buy the RM1k tickets (like real) :p

Marry me you awesome, awesome man :p hahaha

Partner of Crime...

Things that matter....

2011-03-14T00:48:00.001-07:00

Nowadays news on natural disasters is pretty much an everyday occurrence. You'll hear about floods, earthquake, storms etc so often that the impact is not so profound. Of course you'll feel sorry for the life/things that people lost, you may even feel sad and scared but at the end of the day you'll just move on with your everyday life.

The news on the massive earthquake in North Japan had a different impact on me. When I found out on yahoo about the 8.9 magnitude earthquake and following tsunami my heart literally stopped. My first thought automatically when to Cath, so I send an email checking if she's alright.

Reports after reports came, one worst after the other but still no response from Cath. Naturally, I was worried. SMS Jessie and Lan immediately and immediately tried other points of communication i.e. sms/office phones and IM. Semua takde reply. At that point I admit Jessie and I was feeling a bit panicky but of course we told each other to think positive. Later made contact with Sarah promising to update each other for news. Finally at 11.30pm finally got the news from Sarah who managed to get hold of Cath on the phone. At that time I felt like a huge burden was carried off my shoulders, only then did all of us managed to relax and go to sleep.

It's crazy I guess, at times like that my overactive imagination played all sorts of crazy scenario. At one point I told myself I should just stop because I was just driving myself nuts. Even everyone at home was worried. My sis was helping me find Cath's home number and my mum and dad was asking every few hours if I've heard any new news from Japan.

Trust me the reaction that we had was not melodramatic in any sense. Just imagining the possibility of losing one of my best friend really scare the shit out of me. This is not any ordinary person on the street, this is the person who've I've shared 15 years worth of memories (good and bad). Hey, this is my maid of honour ok!! She drives me nuts sometimes but I can't imagine a world without her around.

I feel sad that my friend had to endure the 20km- 7 hours walk home alone from her workplace to her home, can't imagine how terrified she would be at the time. Anyway I'm so glad that Cath, Matt, Aunt Jen and Uncle Toshi are safe and that their house escaped any major damage. There's still some after aftershocks going on, so let's continue to pray that everyone will stay safe *insyallah*

In the mean time, I seriously thank Allah for protecting Cath and her family from harm *alhamdullilah* So people appreciate the things you have in your life because it can be taken away at any time. For those who've been complaining about trivial stuff, you should be ashamed of yourself. Till then, stay positive and have a great week ahead everyone :)

Ryan's Milestones (Part 2)

2011-03-10T00:03:00.000-08:00

I feel like as if I haven’t been blogging about Ryan’s development for some time. I guess it is hard to cluster the “achievements” (for lack of better word) as there is something new every day.

Ryan is up but not exactly running :p He’s able to walk (or I prefer the word toddle around) which he’ll do mostly at school but not much at home as he prefers other method of movement i.e. walking on his knees (I seriously don’t know where he learned this from), crawl or make someone carry him around.

I’m not worried though, he can run around when he feels like it and his pediatrician confirm that he’s thriving as he should at 14 months :p when that day comes I shall start locking every door and pack away all my beautiful artsy decoration. Not that I can relax on the supervision, as it is Ryan is a very active climber and he can’t seem to find a drawer that he won’t open. My curious tom have suffered from minor falls and bangs along the way, but boys would be boys and we encourage his curiosity/ sense adventure but within safe confinements.

Other than being on the move all the time, my little boy is a bit of a chatterbox, very much like his mummy. He’s able to say:-
Mama/Miee – Mummy
Diddy – Daddy
Nennek- Nenek
Ayyahh- He calls my dad ayah, after listening to my siblings call my dad as such, and he refused to use the term atuk *geram* haha
Nak- I want
NaNak- Don’t want
Nekkk- Milk
Nak Nek- Want milk :p
Bak- gimme
Bukak/ kak- open
Dah- Sudah/ enough
Innish- Finish
Pish- Fish
Catzzzz- cat
Ooff- dog
Dukk-duck
Mo/ Dadada – Elmo (what else?)
Sta sta sta- singing twinkle-twinkle (along with the finger star movement)
Ba ta ta – singing his favorite alif ba ta iqra’ song

He’s also able to follow simple instruction like Stop (works so much better than NO!), No (I would mostly be ignored along with a cheeky naughty smile), come here please, let’s go, school time (which he will sometime answer with a Nanak and furious head shake), do you want to eat?, kiss me, high five, shake hand (in which he will salam and cium tangan), baca doa before eating (complete with the amin at the end), Kiss (flying kiss +muacks) etc etc

Last week while Ryan was playing in the hall of my parent’s house, I just said Allahuakhbar, thinking that he would mimic takbir (i.e. putting his hands to his ears during prayers). He didn’t but instead headed into my parents room. My dad and I followed him out of curiosity and do you know what he did? He actually went on this rattan prayer mat that my dad had laid down and actually did the sujud (an action from the prayers), put his hand up for doa, said amin smiled and said “dah!” . He actually “prayed” albeit for one rakaat :p

Ya Allah, what can I say? Ryan has really been paying attention. The fact that he’s able to copy movement from our prayers is one thing but being able to connect “prayers- room- prayer mat and kiblat” makes me swell with pride, my 14 months connected tots *huge grin*

Ryan did something really sweet two days ago, I was putting on my makeup while he was playing on the rug next to me, I felt a tug and I saw him standing next to me babbling “Mie mie”. I looked down and asked him what he wanted. He pointed for me to come closer and when I came down to his eye level, he gave me this seriously yucky slurpy kiss completed with the “muack muacks” Hahaha he actually wanted to kiss me, my sweet darling baby and he’s all mine mine mine :)

Ryan in his new Bumblebee courtesy of Atuk. I came back home and I saw him playing in the car. Lan and I was speechless (jealous aku) I'm so asking for an Ipad for my birthday.

I got the dirtiest stare from this makcik in BV after Ryan's Gymboree last week. I think she thought I actually gave my baby hot coffee for real. Hello!! it's an empty cup and I don't even drink coffee

Pointing happily at daddy :p

Ryan took this photo. He knows which button to press and now every time he sees my BB he insisted on taking a photo (habis battery aku :p)

I love buying him toys/books that is slightly above his age. Trying to get him interested in colouring. Check out his doodle :p

Impressed? Don't be

This work of art is courtesy of my sister and I :p

Experiment Completed...

2011-03-04T00:43:00.000-08:00

Out of curiosity I challenged myself to blog everyday – 5 days straight for this whole week.

I have to say it is not an easy task. Finding for things to blog about, so as not to appear too “merapu” is quite difficult. Time factor is another deterrence factor. But when I put my mind to it, anything is possible right? Though, I have a newfound respect for avid bloggers who blogs every day.

I have to say that I choose a quite eventful week to proceed with my “challenge”. From anniversary to birthdays and thank god for “Wordless Wednesday” entries. I was all drained out of ideas by yesterday hence the bordering nonsensical entry.

Anywayzzz…

Weekend is fast approaching. Ryan is going to have his first “music class” in Gymboree. I don’t think there’s any instrument playing involved (unless you count tambourine or maracas as “real” instrument) but it will be a good exposure “creatively”. My only problem with it is that classes start at 9 a.m. I’m not too crazy over having to wake up so early on a weekend but anything for Ryan right?

So I’ve completed my self-imposed challenged so I’ll be back to my 1 or 2 blog entry per week hehehe

Have a good weekend everyone!!!

Marchesa Fabulous

2011-03-02T23:53:00.000-08:00

I'm seeing a lot of Marc.hesa gowns on the red carpet lately and you know what? I want one. The dresses are gorgeous and the intricate detailing is just to die for.

Disregard the fact that I can't afford one or the fact that even if for some reason I strike it rich, I have no place to wear it to. Well, I just want one of these gorgeous babies hanging in my closet. Maybe with a matching Jimmy Choo :p

I don't ask for much, do I? Please *cherries on top*

Wordless Wednesday #5

2011-03-01T18:31:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to the best mummy/grandma in the whole wide world..

If I can be half the mum that you're I'll be awesome :)

We LOVE you branches...

(I note my not so wordless "Wordless Wednesday" entry)

Crazy Weekend Pic-Cha Galore!!

2011-02-28T19:50:00.000-08:00

The past weekend was a bit crazy but super fun :) With preparations for upcoming trip *supergrin*, gymboree, anniversary dinner, wedding, visiting family, shopping expedition (like real) in Alamanda AND Sunway in a day, I barely had the time to relax despite it being the weekend.

Since becoming a mother camwhoring activities is pretty limited for obvious reasons but I managed to snap some pics. I'm going to cheat and post pictures instead of doing a proper blog entry :p

Ryan is a true "foodie" he loves food, it is such a joy watching him eat :)

Tony Roma's. Love the steak and ribs combo.

Ryan's colouring :p

My new Adidas Samantharina flats and pinky water bottle courtesy of hubby. OMG the shoe is superduper comfortable, just the thing I need for our trip :) Loving the fact that it is practical but also uber cute.

P/S: Check out the new blog layout. In a mood of a "less pink" design.

Two Years and Counting...

2011-02-27T20:51:00.000-08:00

I surprised a lot of people, when I told them that I wanted to get married. Even the people who are close to me (my parents included) was a bit taken aback when I made the announcement that I'm ready to tie the knot. Most expected that I'll wait (wait for what pun I dunno)

I remembered Jessie asking me, how do I know that Lan is "the one". I told her I can't list down the reasons but I just knew (haha my reasons don't sound so convincing kan?)

So after 10 months of preparations, thousands of ringgit, countless energy and efforts, loads of tears & tantrums (mostly on my part) Lan and I was pronounced husband and wife, 2 years ago on the 27/02/2009 and here we are still *alhamdullilah*

My favourite wedding photo from the album is the one below. I think it best described our relationship. SIMPLE but BEAUTIFUL :) I've been in complicated relationship before, where so much effort was taken to make things work, but when it comes down to it, I realize the reason why I love my husband so much is because he makes EVERYTHING so simple even when I choose to make things complicated :p

We started with so little, taking a huge risk by getting married and within these 2 years our relationship have evolved to a point beyond my recognition. I've been blessed with so much and I believe it is partly due to Lan's love, support and motivation.

So Happy Anniversary Mr Husband, May Allah bless our marriage and give you the will to deal with my insanity and bestowed me with enough patience to deal with your "cluelessness" (haha). I love you branches and branches and here's to hoping for many more years of happiness and cute little babies (double haha)

Croaking I am...

2011-02-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

I'm bored and a friend fwd-ed an email entitled "what your birth date says about you" . The descriptions are based on your birthday. I don't know the science involved in coming up with the criteria but like I said I was bored so here goes...

I'm a Bullfrog

You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life.
Well I do try and keep a positive outlook on life but I won't say that I'm the most cheerful person in town. My mum would call me downright grumpy actually (haha)

Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected.
Again, I can't say this is true because if people around me are sad, of course it will effect me on some level. I may be indifferent but I'm not insensitive.

In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go.
I hope so-ler but I highly doubt it (huhu)

You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need.
Well I would say I'm a good listener (when I want to be ;p ) If you don't know me well you would think that I don't care (you're probably right coz I try not to masuk campur other people's business) but my friends know that I'll be there for them if they need me (any time, any day). Anyway BEWARE!! despite the sometimes blur look I usually know more that I let on. Look BLUR think SMART thingy that I have going on...

You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what.
Well everybody hates hypocrite unless it is them doing it (huhu)

You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you.
Ok this is true... I hate mess. I don't have OCD and I don't go nuts if my books are not symmetrically aligned but I would prefer if my stuff are in order and not all over the place.

Beware: it is easy for you to fall in love....
Betul ke? I don't think so, I may have crushes on people but I don't fall in LOVE with them easily.

Conclusion : If you actually read through the list you would see that the description is pretty general so it can technically apply to anyone. So take it with a pinch of salt, you are who you are, and I don't really think your birth date/horoscope determine your personality (but hey, that is just me).

However, you can't deny it is fun to try out this things esp. if you're bored :)

Of Sickness and Doodles

2011-02-18T00:25:00.000-08:00

I'm down with a flu bug that just won't go away :( My coughing fits get so crazy sometimes, I need to use the Ventolin Inhaler to ease the cough. So no ice water and mandi tengah malam for the time being. I'll do *almost* anything to make this cough go away.

Anyhooo....

I'm introducing Ryan to the Alphabets/Numbers/Objects at the moment. Other than using flash cards, posters, books etc I had this brilliant idea (self praise moments) where I'll draw the objects myself on art blocks or plain paper. Simple yet more engaging and with more personal touch. At the same time drawing = creativity as the child would be able to experiment with colours and textures.

Ryan at 14 months is a bit too young to engaged in proper arts and craft activities so I decided that he should start with "DOODLING" i.e. conteng whatever he wants on a paper (or sometimes his face/hands and clothes). I bought him a book of drawing paper and some non-toxic magic pens.

I have to admit that it was a bit of a mistake as the pens are too slender for Ryan's little finger and though the inks are non-toxic it is not washable thus it is very hard to clean the stains. I was considering crayons but was not able to find anything toddler friendly.

Last week as I was walking through Borders stationary section, I stumbled into the Crayola Beginning Arts series. I found these cute baby stampers which fits in the palm of a baby hand. Best ok!! each set consist of 3 stamps (a cow, a chicken and a horse). Ryan love his stamps though he need some help to stamps the objects properly. The series is intended for toddler above 18 months so older kids would find it easier to manage.

Anyway I found out there's another shop in Curve called Tango Mango that sells an extensive Crayola Beginnings line. I think I would get Ryan the doodle or crayon next. It should be easier to use than the stampers. The best part is that the products are not only non-toxic but also washable *yeay*

Once he's more efficient with his Tadoodles maybe daddy can buy Ryan this XXL Doodle Mat :) *wink2*
That's all for now. I can't wait to go home and start my weekend already. Have a good weekend everyone :)

Wordless Wednesday #4

2011-02-15T19:41:00.001-08:00

Happy 32nd Anniversary Atuk & Nenek

Love you branches and may Allah bless your marriage forever *amin*

The L O V E Thing

2011-02-10T23:00:00.000-08:00

I don't get the whole fuss about Valentine Day...

After having my so called "first date" with my ex-boyfie on Valentine's Day 9 years ago, I've never wanted to go out ANYWHERE on 14 February anymore. My memory of the so called date is pretty hazy ( or so I have to pretend since husband darling reads this blog hahaha) but what I remembered the most was the traffic, horrible crowd, ridiculously expensive roses and packed restaurant. You can't walk across any mall without bumping into some ridiculously hormone charged teenager.

Coupled with my hatred for packed rooms and crowds, I've stopped celebrating Valentine all together after that. Other than the religious implications of celebrating Vday, as I grow older (and more mature) I just don't see the rationale of honouring one day for LOVE when you can treat every single day as special for your love ones. You don't need Hallmark/Memory Lane/CardDuta (for the cheapskates) the florist, or other commercialized entity that is capitalizing on Valentine's Day to help you show your partner that you cherish and appreciate them.

So ladies dress up in a gorgeous dress for our partners and guys buy your missus flowers and chocolates and celebrate your love on any random day. They deserve it for making you as happy as you are today.

I found this cute cards online, just thought I'll share it with everyone for fun. Have a great Friday & weekend everyone :)

Family Time :)

2011-02-08T18:55:00.000-08:00

Thanks to the long break last week, I was itching to go somewhere and not just veg at home for 4 days. Plans to go places outside of Selangor was scraped as I have no intention to face a 4-5 hour of jam with a screaming toddler in the car (I was going for RELAX and not TORTURE :p )

Anyway we decided to got to Morib as it is only an hour away. The place have undergone a huge transformation as compared to how it looked 15 years ago. We arrived at noon so mandi laut was out, so we just decided to have a mini KFC picnic instead

Before and after photos

Since there's not much to do, we camwhored instead :)

Heheheh cuteness

Mummy and Ryan

With Upin courtesy of Nenek. Mummy wanted Ipin tu but the Exora dah overload lah sayang :p

With mak long and pak long

Ryan in his new octo pool :p He had so much fun that he don't want to go out

*******

I had so much fun during the break. I was so sad when it ended, On the downside due to the makan-makan session in Sunway where I had ice cream overload. I am now currently suffering from cough and flu :( Anyway I'm planning on another trip to the zoo (tak puas hati tak jadi pergi last week) or maybe the bird park this week. Hope the weather will cooperate.

The best is yet to come though. I can't wait for our "big trip" next month. I've been wishing and hoping for this particular trip for years and alhamdullilah my wishes came true. Passport is all ready and all that is left to do is prepare pics for our visa :) *excited mode*

p/s: I should post Ryan's passport pic, seriously HILARIOUS :p

Wordless Wednesday #3

2011-02-01T18:39:00.000-08:00

Aimee's Wedding 29/01/01 @ Dorset Hotel, Subang Jaya

Touched by an Angel...

2011-01-27T20:23:00.000-08:00

A few years back, I got to know a girl from work. We were never close but I greatly admire her attitude. In my opinion she’s the most positive person that I’ve ever met in my life. Let just call her W

2 ½ years back when we were both preparing for our engagement, she found out that her mum is suffering from cancer. Having to deal with a very difficult boss, late nights at work, preparing for an engagement and taking care of her sick mum must not be easy, but every morning she’ll come to work and greet us with a smile. I feel like a total ass when I’m there fretting over a pimple a week before my big day and there she was consoling me, when obviously she had bigger things to deal with.

Fast forward a few months later, due to her mum’s health and husband’s-to-be request, her wedding date was brought forward by 3 months (I think), she had about 1 ½ month to make preparations but she was really cool about it. No Bridezilla moments. She had her wedding dress done, deco, cards and caterers chosen and booked without any drama. She made it so simple and it turn out to be one of the most beautiful wedding I’ve attended.

When I was about 3 months pregnant with Ryan, W found out that she’s pregnant. A few weeks later she suffered from a miscarriage and lost the baby. When I saw her after she came back from her medical leave, I wanted to cry but not because I felt sorry for her but because I can’t imagine if I can be as strong as she is if I have to go through the same tests. She told me with a smile that she truly believes that Allah has better plans for her and instead of being caught in any self absorbed pity party she started asking me about my pregnancy (which I doubt is easy) and we had fun laughing and joking around.

She left the organization shortly after and we didn’t really keep in touch. I do hope she’s really happy wherever she is but my short friendship with W left me with one of the greatest lessons in my life and it changed my perspective on a lot of things.

Before when bad things happen I always think “shit happens… but only to me” now I choose to be more positive instead. I have so many good things going for me so it made no sense to concentrate only on the horrible memories. I also learned the best thing way to get out of a rut/bad mood is to do something nice to others. Instant mood elevator :) You see good vibes attract good karma, and Allah is fair, he knows what is good for you even when you don’t know it yourself.

Wordless Wednesday #2

2011-01-25T20:07:00.001-08:00

** I know I'm not supposed to comment on "Wordless Wednesday" but I would like to point out that my arwah wan (first row, extreme left) is so fashion forward with her hijab fashion yg people baru nak buat sekarang haha.

I miss you so much, you know :'(
#al-fatihah#

My 13 Months Old Darling...

2011-01-20T23:22:00.000-08:00

In just a blink of an eye my calm and docile newborn has been replaced by an adorable little jumping, climbing, tantrum throwing toddler who just turned 13 months old yesterday.

I find managing Ryan is a challenge nowadays. He’s a bit more “spirited” and very demanding after he’s been moved from the infant class to the toddler class in kindy. From my observation the kids are given more freedom to roam around and play with their peers under strict observation, of course.

Mr. Ryan who’s used to the attention from his previous caretaker is not doing so well with the transition. He tries to make up for the lack of attention in kindy by trying to get extra attention at home. I think he misses his grandparents too. I know it sounds absurd since he sees my parents every day, but he only spend about 3 hours with atuk and nenek daily, in comparison to all waking seconds before.

These changes may seem minor to an adults but for a 13 months old baby it’s a huge transition so we try to be more understanding. At the same time Lan and I can’t let the bad behavior slide. We try to be consistent with our decisions/actions. Firm but at the same time sympathetic.

Ryan is responding well to our “training”. I would’t really call it “disciplining” because I don’t think you can “discipline” a child below 2 years old like you do a 4 or 5 years old. The trick is “consistency”, we’ve established a loose timetable for Ryan to follow.
5.30-6.30pm: Playtime (which consist of banging on the organ, drawing, playing trucks etc)
6.30 pm: dinner + clean up and change to PJ’s
7.00pm: Video time while mummy and daddy take turns to pray,
8.00 pm: Read Iqra’ with Nenek
8.30 pm: Balik rumah and play in his room until
9.15 pm: sleep time in his own cot :)

Trust me it is not easy. Imagine coming back after a long day at work and you just want to relax but you can’t. There’s housework to do, errands to tackle, a new house to deal with and a baby who vying for your attention. It is extra hard when you don’t have a “bibik” or maid to help with the chores. But we all make do with what we have.

I admit there are times when I do lose my temper and I’ve been known to raise my voice more than once but I can safely say that 85% of the time the “training” works. Less fussing and screaming. We’ve only tried this method for a month so it is still work in progress but Lan and I agree on one thing…

Ryan is worth all the trouble… hehe

Wordless Wednesday #1

2011-01-11T22:20:00.000-08:00

My Top 10 Fashion Essentials

2011-01-11T00:22:00.000-08:00

I’m itching to go clothes shopping. As usual there’s nothing that I need, just unnecessary things that I want. Since the house “beautification project” is still ongoing (I suspect it’s going to be a yearlong project due to budget constraints) I have to be more frugal with my spending.

Anyway I decided to clean up my 2 suitcases + 3 boxes of clothes first before I go clothes shopping. I’m planning to throw/ give away/alter clothes that are torn, unwearable due to style/size/comfort factors. No more hoarding old clothes in hope that I shall one day fit again in my size 24 Levis (I’ve accepted that this ass is beyond going to its pre Ryan size :p) I shall not be obsessed with the no (size) on the clothes and pay attention on what fits me right.

I’m giving myself about 2-3 weeks to complete the project (when you have a one year old running around the house with no additional help other than your husband, a 3 hours chore would now take days to complete)

To prepare myself, I’ve read up columns/articles on basic fashion essential to free myself from unnecessary “fashion victim/ whim purchases/ heartbreak shopping” clutter. I’ve made some amendments to Tim Gunn top 10 fashions essential according to my personal preference and the fact that I’m wearing a hijab.

This is my top 10 fashion essentials :-

1. White button down shirt - For work and play

2. Crisp black pants - Inexpensive but beautifully tailored

3. Boy friend cardigan - Essential to cover up while wearing fitted tops

4. Little (in my case Maxi) black dress - for every occasion :)

5. Maxi Skirts - I love this when I'm all lazy and need something a bit more dressier than jeans

6. Jeans - A nice fitted pair :) No muffin tops + hug areas that are not meant to be hugged

7. Sweaters - if you have the $$$ invest on Cashmere...

8. Blazer - for work and during those times when you want to jazz up your jeans + baby T outfit

9. Baju kurung - office baju kurung (nice fit/subtle designs/no labucci + overly beading)

10. Lazy long sleeve shirts :)

Once I'm done with my closet revamp, I shall make a list of things that is "missing" in my wardrobe and go crazy shopping :) *arrgghh* I'm now embracing the shopping with a purpose concept *grin*

New Year : New Day

2011-01-09T20:17:00.000-08:00

My first day at work in this New Year :)

Last week was crazy hectic mostly because Ryan was hospitalized for 4 days at SJMC. Long story short everyone and everything is fine and dandy. Nothing major but a minor lung infection (bronchitis) and doctor needed to put him under review and 3 days antibiotics course. Ryan being Ryan does not show any signs of sickness, jumping around and playing like nobody business :) Anyway he's ok now..

I rather not spend 45 minutes detailing moaning and complaints that goes like"why do god do this to me rants" as I see them as POINTLESS. Negative people attract negative energy so why bother,huh?

Anyhoooo... On a more cheerful note... We had our first function at our new crib on the 01.01.11 :) Everything went as plan *alhamdullilah* Thanks to my family members for all the help and food and thanks to my friends who came to celebrate with us. Technically we did not have a housewarming party and the event was not merely to celebrate Ryan's birthday, the MAIN EVENT of the day is actually the DOA SELAMAT to "bless" our new home with prayers and Yassin Recital.

We decided to kill two birds with one stone and celebrate Ryan's birthday with his extended family : piyut (great great grandma), his 2 nyangs (great grandma), countless atuks, nenek, wan, uncles, aunts and friends :) To minimize cost I did most of the decorations myself (cutting Elmo faces from cardboard, gathering feathers, making my own lollipop stand) Yeah yeah I know Ryan don't have a clue on what's going on but I love the creative process so it is not much of a chore to me...

Our little family: cake cutting time :)

The most gorgeous and delicious Elmo cake + Sesame Street cupcakes from Nadibakes

First tier : Chocolate mud, Second tier: Nutella and cupcakes : Butterscotch

*yummy*

Our Sesame Street inspired Desert Bar

Self Help concept : great idea but my cousin kinda whip everything within 5 seconds :p

Ryan, Mummy and Daddy...

With atuk, nenek, mak long and Darrin :)

Ryan playing with Lana on his new tricycle courtesy of atuk...

Thanks girls for coming...
(and my other friends yg datang but tak letak gambar :p )

Ryan and his supermarket tent from Mak Long

Good haul : toys, clothes and $$$$

Alhamdullilah murah rezeki :)

Thanks everyone for being so generous....

Happy playing with his new train thingy.

Thank you Aunt Farisa...

End of the Year....

2010-12-29T18:13:00.000-08:00

The end of 2010 is fast approaching.

So many good things have happen to me this year with some bad memories interwoven too. The most important thing is I’ve grown stronger, wiser and more mature due to the experiences (not so but still…)

Whatever it is I’m thankful to Allah for all the blessings

Thank you for my beautiful baby boy and the most awesome (patient) husband, great family and in-laws, health, my newly acquired Masters Degree (big grin), several new assets (;p) and lovely friends and confidante’

With every good thing some bad things will follow, well I don’t expect my life to be one easy straight road. The challenges are the things that give colour to my life and I always believe that Allah won’t test us with things that he don’t think we can cope with. I shall endure and *insyallah* more good things will come soon.

I hope everyone will have a good year ahead and stay positive in the face of crappy stuff happening : p

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!

P/S: Ryan is down with bronchitis at the moment :( Doctor almost decided that he is to be warded 3 days before his birthday party, but he was better after his nebulizer treatment yesterday, hope the follow up today bring some good news, no hospital please…

PP/S: Good job and congratulations to the Malaysian football team. Thanks to you the PM have declared tomorrow to be a PUBLIC HOLIDAY for everyone where most of us did nothing but sat on our butt for 1 ½ hours cheering you on. Keep up the good work boys :p

December Happenings : The Summary

2010-12-26T22:20:00.000-08:00

I'm a bit lazy to type actual words so I shall do a PHOTO STORY :) of our activities in December 2010.

1. Dinos Alive : Pusat Sains Negara (12 December 2010)

Salt water fish aquarium : Entrance with Ryan and Mamat (my sister's nephew)

The boys with the monkey band :p

TRANSFORMERS

Tyrannosaurus Rex : Grrrr

T- Rex fossils

Sumpah lawak Dino ni rap ala2 Kelwa :p

Hello!!!

Let's raid mummy's bag

@curve

TGIF : Ryan buli abang mamat :p hahaha

2. Iena's Wedding @ Bangi

Uda, Reebok & Aimee

Love this photo

*awww*

My lil man surrounded by hotties :p

With Nawal

Salam x tengok muka *sigh* I guess he prefers older kids

Nawal and his mummy. Dana muka sama-lah

Cubaan nak geng ngan Kak Nia x berjaya :p

Hehehehe tetiba geng with Aunt Isya...

With the Bride and the Groom

Congrats Ienanononi...

Ok I dunno what kinda pose we're trying to do...

Note:

There's more pics but I haven't found the time to upload it on FB. I shall be more dilligent by Mid January, when I expect all the furnitures to arrive and we've officially move in ALL our stuff to the new crib :p

Ryan's Birthday Celebration - Part One

2010-12-21T19:30:00.000-08:00

Date: 20/12/2010
Venue: Home, Ikea Damansara, Empire Subang and Taska Az-Zahra
Occassion?? Hooray Hooray Ryan is ONE today...

Lan and I decided to have a small celebration for Ryan on Monday. Everyone in my family took leave to have an intimate family lunch together and spend some time with our little boy.

Woke up early and finalized Ryan's party packs for his kindy mates. Later Lan, Ryan and I went to Ikea to get some house stuff. We decided to meet up with my dad, mum and sis at Empire Subang and we had lunch at Kenny Rogers :P The birthday boy got to choose his present from atuk and mak long (quite a haul, alhamdullilah!!)

Around 5pm we headed out to Ryan's school to have a simple celebration with his "friends". I'm gonna leave you guys with the pictures.

Theme of the day : Sesame Beginnings :)

I designed the stickers myself (and some other deco for Party Part 2. I think my little boy deserve some personalized touch from mummy dearie huhu

Let's help mummy stick the stickers

Big Apple ;p

Maybe I should get him one of this...hahaha

Ryan's "older" classmates

One of his main caretaker, Ryan is jealous that she's holding the other boy haha

Cutting "mo" cake :)

"nak nak"

*yummy* everyone was shouting 'cake..cake" at the moment

Hehe thanks for accommodating us teachers :)

(malu sebab other parents x celebrate pun, my mum over excited nak celebrate the first grandson bday at school ;p but still thanks mummy for wanting the best for Ryan )

Stay tuned for part II coming soon in a few more weeks :D

In My Very Own Dream(Bag)Land....

2010-12-20T23:25:00.000-08:00

Since I'm a total dunce and did not upload pictures from Ryan's bday "party" yesterday (which I will do tomorrow) I shall make it up with another IMPORTANT post...

You see I've gotten my pay + bonus for this year (it's neither GOOD nor is it bad, I'm just thankful) . Majority of the $$$ would be spent on the house (sad but necessary :( ) but after having to put up with one of the most difficult supervisor i.e. tai chi master for a year. I think I deserve a treat.

And that treat should come in the form of this Anya Hindmarch Vernis Bag as seen on the fashion guru herself Blair Waldorf :) The one Blair is carrying is a few season back but the new line is even prettier with an even sturdier handle (must have for a mum like moi)

I can't make up my mind, should I or should I not?? I know the design is very "simple" and may look a bit B O R I N G but I need a new bag for work -something a bit more classic rather than my usual choice of bright red and hot pink bags.

Let see what my "financial advisor" have to say about this intended purchase... huhuhu

SHOULD I GET A MATCHING SHOE WITH MY IMAGINARY NEW BAG?

I love this Pierre Hardy heels spotted on Leighton Meester during a Herbal Essences event. Mimpi jelah the shoes retail at USD 1,053 (about RM3500++ in Malaysia) I rather buy my Boston instead :p

Very pretty up close right :)

Everyone Judge (It's me Judging)

2010-12-15T19:20:00.000-08:00

When people tell you to just be yourself. Do you think they really mean it? Or are they just saying that so that they can go behind your back and judge you like crazy.

But my question is why do you care? If the things you are doing make you happy, why not disregard other people views on you? As long as you’re happy, right? Too bad humans are driven more by emotions than logic. So no matter what is being said, whether it is true or not, if it is a negative statement it will affect us on some level.

For some of us, you may get all emotional, start screaming at that person, hurl verbal abuse, rant on twitter, blog about it etc. Some people may keep quiet and do nothing or think about it for a second and dismissing it as jealousy/negative feedback etc. Whatever your method of coping may be there would be some reaction to the statement.

I don’t know a single person who is as “open minded” as they claim to be (at least in my opinion). My definition of “open minded” is being able to accept and respect views from all quarters, process it logically and act in a manner the “open minded” person sees fit.

Nowadays when people say that they are open minded, most choose to see it from one angel which is accepting “western cultures and views”. Sometimes it goes as far as accepting other people cultures but disregarding our own local/religious belief with the preconceived notion that anything Islam/ Malaysian is “uncool”, “kolot” and “uptight”.

Whatever happens to balance?

To me, EVERYONE is entitled to have their own opinion but please don’t expect everyone to agree. The thing about freedom of speech is that it goes BOTH ways. You have the FREEDOM to say what you want and other people have the same FREEDOM to disagree/criticize etc. How you plan to handle people perception on you is up to you but you can’t expect to say something provocative and expect people around you to nod and agree.

For example: I’ve been asked this question from my non-muslim friends when I was younger. ‘Far,I thought you’re open minded, why don’t you drink alcohol ?”. My answer has always been the same “I’m open minded as much as my religion allow me to be” and they respected that. FULL STOP.

The tiring part is that I have to defend my choices to my friends who are Muslims, who knows the faith but still choose to consume alcohol and goes all out to justify their actions. For some reason the defensive mode just kick in full gear. Honestly, Do I think they are bad people? Nope but at the same I don’t necessarily agree with their choices. If you’re close to me I may even tell you WHY :) but your decision is your own and I respect you for it.

At the same time I don't think just because you're wearing hijab, act all holy means you're a good person. I know some people who are physically covered but *masyallah* perangai worst than their non-hijabians counterparts.

Sometimes your actions/clothes/ words does not necessarily defined you. Sometimes it does. We all interpret things differently.We just need to agree to disagree and go on and live our life as we sees fit.

In the words of Shakespeare – “Few love to hear the sins they love to act"

I’m not here to preach. That is not my job. But I think some people should not live in an idealistic world where they think everyone should listen to what they have to say because THEY are saying it. You see everyone JUDGE. You can’t help it you’re human. Just don’t be a hypocrite about it: p

If you don’t know me, you’ll hate me. When you make the mistake of thinking you know my you’ll think I’m plain and emotionally unavailable but when you truly know me you won’t be able to stop yourself from loving me. XoXo- Far

P/S: I need more hours in the day. In between work, wifely/mumsy duty, planning for Ryan's Bday @ Kindy and Doa Selamat + Ryan's Bday @ home I have no time to even finish a book this week. To me that is BAD!!!

PP/S: I just designed and printed stickers for Ryan's party packs on my own. Kinda fun, I think I can do this party planning thingy for a living hahaha (yeah getting a bit over my head)

Our Hijrah...

2010-12-09T01:12:00.000-08:00

Update 1- Awal Muharram Project

We’ve moved out from our Shah Alam house into our new crib last Tuesday. There’s crazy amount of cleaning to do and I have no idea how I’m going to complete it all by January 1st. Besides some drama with the movers (thank god for my brother in law who totally saved the day) everything went well.

Lan and I hosted our first “family gathering” with my family and in-laws. It was an impromptu “picnic lunch” when my mum in law decided to come over with loads of yummy treats and then my mum came with more food she cooked from home so we ended up with quite a spread. Carted off cutleries from my mum’s place (pathetic cause most of my dishware are all still in boxes) and had lunch on the floor. It was fun to have everyone together though.

I’m telling you the expenses to set up the house is CRAZY (hence the capital letters) and here I’m talking absolute essential stuff. Money is flowing out like water. However, I see it as an investment as it is for long term used. As of now we’ve managed to install our grills, kitchen cabinet, tiles to the living room, build an extended back wall/ cement ½ of car porch, main bathroom sliding door and air conditioner. More home improvement work to be done gradually :p

Update 2- Mini Shopaholic Inspiration of the Day

I think I shall stop buying clothes (we’ll see how long I can abstain).Seeing all the outfits that I have to cart from Shah Alam makes me feel guilty. Some of the clothes still have tags and never worn. There are some purchases that was highly questionable like a PVC legging and neon green dress (what was I thinking mode).

I think I shall throw the ones that are not wearable, donate the decent clothes to the charity box near my house and probably sell off some. If you’re nice to me I may let you raid my closet for clothes, scarves, bags and shoes that I don’t want anymore.

My sisters in law had a field day after I gave them a paper bag full of Roxy, Converse, kiddy handbags and sling bags that I have out grown. Serious rasa sayang nak bagi (dasar manusia memang tamak haha) but I figured letting them go unused is just wasteful.

I shall learn to mix and match my available clothes better, reorganize my closet and come up with loads of new outfits instead of buying clothes just because. In honour of the New Year I shall strive to be less wastefull and be more prudent with my spending :)

Update 3- 3 Muharram 1432
According to the Islamic Calendar, my little prince turns one today. I remembered how I was hoping that his birthday fall on Awal Muharram: p but Ryan has different plans for me. Making us wait for 45 hours before he decided to grace us with his presence. Darling let me tell you this: The wait was worth every single contraction, pain, sweat, blood etc. You’re worth it. I hope you will grow up into a soleh, highly intelligent, handsome, considerate, understanding, responsible and happy young man. Mummy and daddy will always pray for your well being.

Happy Birthday Muhammad Ryan Daniel. I love you very very much. I’ll bring you out later for a small celebration (provided that your father agrees) and we will celebrate again with Atuk & Nenek on your “other” birthday this 20/12/2010 ok

Run-A-Way Fashion...

2010-12-01T19:10:00.000-08:00

Some of the key pieces on the Fall-Winter 2010 Fashion must have list are the Maxi skirts :) I'm dying for one (or maybe 20 ha-ha) but of course I have to behave and not waste money on things I don't need (but want).

I guess if you're wearing a hijab and are finding new ways to revamp your style/closet, but are not adventerous enough to go the "harem pants" way -> Maxi's (dress/skirts) are the way to go.

Anyway I've compiled a short maxi skirt wishlist. I hope the new line would be in by xmas and you can guess what I would be spending my meager bonus on :p In the meantime I saw the most gorgeous citrus coloured skirt in one of the Thai fair and is planning on getting one (it is also way cheaper than any of the skirt on the wishlist) :p

1. Topshop Stained Glass Maxi Skirt

2. Topshop Patchwork Stripe Maxi- Kate Moss Special Edition

3. Miss Selfridge Animal Printed Maxi

4. F21 Metallic Knit Maxi

5. F21 Black Lace Maxi

6. Longline Tulle Skirt- This is not practical but I love love this, whimsical but with with a simple t-shirt it won't be so over the top :p

Picture Perfect...

2010-11-28T18:18:00.000-08:00

The photos from our photo shoot in CREATIVE LITEBOX is ready :)
Love the final product.. GORGEOUS... maybe it's just because I'm a crazy cam whore :p

I want more... maybe another photo shoot with Lan and Ryan in honour of Ryan's birthday (hunny please *wink wink*)....

Lan is conveniently ignoring me now (hahaha)

Edited pic :p (I cropped Iena out haha)

I love how my make up turn out in the pictures...

A collage of our pic together :) - which is now my current wallpaper

(not professional? who cares)

Me with ze bride....

US :)
Love this pic....
Other pics is on FB...

1 more month to Ryan's 1st Birthday...

2010-11-22T23:26:00.000-08:00

Ryan just turn 11 months old last Saturday (20112010)

He's becoming more active and talkative (baby gibberish). I can say having him around will enlighten any dull moments...I'm going to update on some of his 11 month "thing" and developments :)

Ryan's obsessed with Elmo videos. If he's in my room/atuk room and he feels like watching Elmo he will climb on his victim, pull and shove while saying "dadamo". If you're wondering what is "dadamo" I suggest you listen to the opening credit of Elmo's World*.

I swear to god that he started clapping his hands when heard the opening credits last night (konon so happy that Elmo's on)- Another skill of his is clapping to songs and whenever anyone says "good job" or "good boy"

*Hint: The lyric to Elmo's World goes like this "Dadadada Dadadada Elmo's World...."

100% concentration while watching Elmo. Anyway he knows what to do when we give him his toothbrush now... he'll take it and put it in his mouth and start biting. He love brushing his non existence tooth :p

He love pulling himself up and he is even able to stand on his own without holding anything for a few seconds. He is also able to cruise while holding on to furniture...

Favourite pastime with daddy :p

How sweet that they fell asleep holding hands to each other...

If he wants to bermanja, he will come to me and sleep on the crook of my shoulder/my tummy etc. He loves tugging my hair. If I'm all garang with him, he will open his big brown eyes and pout and start whimpering until I pick him up (serious drama)

He can say a few words like "nak", "bak", "mama", "dada" , "catzz"- Cat, "duks"-duck, "mo"- Elmo, "nek" -milk

If he sees a phone, remote control etc he will put it near his ears and start talking to himself. It's kinda funny, I realised that he pick this up after observing his daddy talking on the phone with someone.

I have to say that his "copycat" skills is also developing: For example he can imitate me playing with his drums and trucks. The funniest was when he put one of my scrunchies on his head konon nak tiru mummy ikat rambut (hahaha serious lawak). The downside? I better watch what I'm doing or saying nowadays. Wouldn't want him to pick my negative habits or even worst curse words :p (my mum will MURDER me)

Ryan with mak long and pak long @DELICIOUS..

Nowdays he insisted on eating adult food and sitting together during dinner time. So we bought him a high chair.

He loves toy play cars in malls.. siap tak nak keluar. The funniest part during this ride is when he actually turn to Garfield, "spoke" to him, patted Garfield's tummy and continued driving. It was a hilarious sight...

"I don't want to leave, don't make me daddy"

That's all folk :)

Are you MAD??

2010-11-22T17:46:00.000-08:00

I know we are :)

Occasion : Iena's Mad Hatter Hen Party
Venue: CreativeLitebox Studio Bangi & B's Restaurant
Theme: Bright & Mad :p

Aimee, Hanis, Juju, Iena, Tinie, unidentified object and Moi!!

The Ferum Gang :)

The Bride and I during our photo shoot...

Heheh posing among the posing... Yes we're a bunch of posers and proud of it :)

I love this pic for some reason :)
@ Pullman's Hotel - Gorgeous view and love the food...
With my darling co-organizer...

With the props and door gift...
The delicious TEAPOT cake

To the bride to be...

Darling, I wish you all the best and hope you'll have a great marriage with Ilya. May allah bless both you always and may you stand by each other through pain and happiness... Good luck :)

I have to say I had an awesome time with my girls, we took countless photos, ate good food, gossip and meluahkan perasaan, torture our very own version of "Beyonce" (saying this while tepuk2 peha) and laugh like mad...

We've gone through so much together and despite what people say behind our backs (YES YOU!!! the so called non-judgemental we're too cool to be true people) we know we can count on our friendship and that's all that matters.... Love ya gals branches and branches....

p/s: more photos on my facebook page....

Version 7.0 : Harry Pot Pot Rules!!!

2010-11-18T23:17:00.000-08:00

I managed to catch Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows last night with Lan, my sister and my bro in law after convincing my mum to babysit Ryan (not that she needs much convincing anyway :p)

Anyway the movie was not bad. I'll be lying if I say that it's the greatest movie ever but it was better than the past 6 installments. It has its moments, like the time Ron took a jibe at Twilight :p However, to be honest there's a lot of plots that need not be there and I do think they sacrifice a lot of scenes depicting "relationships" for a more commercial storyline.

If you read the book, you will know the most important element from the book is the relationships holding all the characters together and I feel that is missing from the movie. I can't feel the same sadness when some of the characters were killed and that's too bad as people who reads the book can't really relate to the characters that they have grown to love (or hate) in the series.

Hands down : Dobby wins the most lovable character in the movie :) Daniel Radcliffe, Rupert Grint, Ralph Fiennes did a good job depicting the characters. Emma Watson deserve to be single out because not only did she's a great actress she looks so BEAUTIFUL in the movie :)

All in all I give it a 7/10 (B+) - Seriously it was a wayyyyy better production that Twilight (better storyline and actors) Kristen "imsomoodyitsannoying" Stewart should take some pointers from Emma Watson :p

KS always have that "I smell poo" expression on her face kan :p hahah

Anyway, I can't wait for the final movie, hope it does the book justice...