I want to do a lot of things at the moment... I want a goodnight sleep... I want to eat normal yummy food... I want to go out and drive around for no reason...I want to dress up and look nice... I want some alone time with hubby....I want to give Ryan all the benefit of breastfeeding without having to breastfeed (haha is that even possible?). I want him to be healthy and happy but not at the expense of me feeling crappy... I'm finding for balance...
I don't want to have to wake up every 2 hours for a 2-3 hours long feeding session... I don't want sore nipples and aching breast... I don't want to feel helpless and angry at myself for not being able to guess what Ryan needs and wants... The stitches still hurt and sometimes it sucks to have to get out of bed...
Am currently alone with Ryan... today is daddy's turn to help Ryan and I..but he needs to run some errands so Ryan and I would need to work it out for a few hours... my family have been taking turns taking leave to take care of me and budak kecik... for that I'm grateful but I still have to do loads of things myself...Am not complaining just venting...
Saya penat, lack of sleep and agak moody... but he's worth it... sangat-sangat... love you Ryan...
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my stitches healed as in jalan baring tak rasa sakit after 3 weeks of labour. rendam dlm air garam suam or air rebusan manjakani. it helps a lot.
ada infection ke?
hi ida... takde infection... but that day ada leftover kulit terkeluar... so kena take it out...nak jalan tak sakit... baring je takleh lama-lama... but dah ok sikit.. 3 weeks ye. i'm in my 3rd week hope by the end of this week dah tak sakit langsung :)
be strong Faarrrr dear! miss yah
no worries far.. its normal for all mommies to feel it..i feel it sampai skrang coz matyi takde!! Sob sob..stay tough!
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