Tuesday, January 5, 2010

The One on Muhammad Ryan Daniel


2 weeks later....

I finally found the time to blog (I hope) Ryan is taking his afternoon nap, so I have about 1-2 hours max before he wakes up again and demands for :-

(a) milk
(b)diaper change
(c) lots and lots of cuddles and attention

I can't believe that I'm a mummy... The whole thing is so surreal, the minute Ryan arrive in this world EVERYTHING changes... some good... some bad... all I can say is labour seems comparatively easy as compared to these 2 weeks of motherhood...

Labour Story...

As the readers of this blog knows, I've started having contraction pains since 17/12/2009 (Thursday) The pain was bearable, come Friday morning, it became more pronounce and frequent by the minute... Painful :p

I was walking around the house, trying to take my mind of things and at the same time trying to convince Lan to bring me out shopping (failed attempt). I managed to get him to accompany me for a walk around the housing area... I managed two rounds before the pains became worst... I still have the piece of paper where Lan and I documented each contraction time.. 4 mins, 5 mins, 6 mins etc...

Anyway contractions was more frequent by 3am Saturday, so we woke my parents up and announced that I wanted to go the hospital... At one point I actually made Lan stop the car because the pain was so bad it actually made me puke (so drama). The worst part is closer to the hospital, the pain somehow eases. I was thinking in my head "Crap, don't tell me its false alarm.. buat malu je pergi and they make you drive back" but I just kept quiet..
We arrive at SDMC Subang around 4am-ish. I managed to walk up and refused the wheelchair, we went into the labour room and spoke to the nurse. To tell you the truth, I don't think the nurse was convinced that I'm in labour, and maybe she was just humouring me, because I was walking with this "sardine face" on me... She was kinda shocked when she found out that I was already 3cm dilated...She admitted me in, and since we already did all the pre-registration stuff there is not much things to do...
At around 6am I was already 4cm dilated and managed another 1 cm by 9am... The dilation was pretty quick but my contractions was not "strong". By 11am I was getting no where, contractions was further apart, was just waiting around for the doctor and this stupid movie by Jessica Simpson was on... my good mood was disappearing FAST... Doctor Delaila finally came in around 1pm and broke my water bag (PAINFUL PROCESS :p) and the waiting game continue...

I was never good at waiting and by 6pm I feel like kicking everyone in sight (haha) My parents came but they can't come in. They got us some stuff and my dad bought Lan Nasi Ayam, I was so pissed at him for no reason, I told him not to leave me and was so merajuk when he ended up eating in front of me... sumpah at that time rasa macam nak suruh dia starve je with me....

9pm : 7cm dilated. 2 doors away this woman was in labour, I was already in pain and the effect of the injection was wearing off ( No epidural for me as I don't want to aggravate my back pain) trying to manage the pain with breathing exercise and gas. Tetiba this crazy woman started screaming.... I'm not talking "arrgghh" kinda scream, it's the kinda scream that was so hysterical it made me panic.... she was going on and on "get it out of me... get it out of me" Rasa macam on the set of some Exorcist movie pulak..... dah lah it went on for about 1 1/2 hour...
Lan must have seen the panic in my face setting in, because he offered to get me my Walkman but I refused... at that time god only knows how scared I felt, by 11pm they had to induce me eventhough I was already 8cm dilated... I guess because dah nak dekat 10 hours since the doctor broke my water bag.... they kinda crank up the "juice" coz they are trying to get me to dilate FAST... so the pain was double the normal inducement process...
Ya allah at that time, I was seriously grabbing on my sanity, kesian hubby :p I was in so much pain dah 9cm dilate I actually ask for the nurse to just have a C-section on me... hahahahah lawak gilakan... Lan muka geram tapi tak berani nak marah, so both him and the nurse was just pujuking that 1cm je tinggal... and for me to just sabar....

12.30 am 20/12/2oo9 - Finally 10cm dilated, started pushing, was using all my energy. 21 hours of no food and exhausted.... Alhamdullilah after 30minutes of pushing managed to deliver Muhammad Ryan Daniel safely....I was not home free yet, after delivering the placenta, doctor informed me that I had to be stitched.. 10 stitches altogether *ouch*
However, the pain and exhaustion vanished once they put Ryan in my arms, I managed to feed him right after delivery and that is the starting point of my love-hate relationship with breast feeding baby Ryan (more story on this some other time ;p)

2 weeks later... here I am typing this with one ear alert waiting for Ryan to cry or move *sigh*

This could have gone without saying but......
We are usually very fast in criticizing people and pointing out on flaws so let me give credit where credit is due...
To hubby... for the past 2 weeks you have been a total prince.. thanks for taking care of me since the start of the pregnancy, in the labour room and the week when you were home... I know some part of the process is disgusting and yucky but you stick through... helping me cope when I'm out of wits while dealing with Ryan, supporting, motivating and loving me despite my tantrums and hysterical crying....sumpah I'm so lucky that I have you as my hubby and Ryan is blessed with such a loving and hands-on daddy....

I usually try to stay clear of lovey dovey post but if you knew the extend Lan when through helping me you will understand why I'm so gushy... even my parents are impressed with their son-in-law.... hahahhaha
My boss is up and awake... I better go see what he wants...Till next update.. muackz..

6 comments:

Jucci said...

awwww babe. i enjoy reading at the same time kinda feel the pain-ness. i can imagine ur sardine face. hehe

u r one strong lady and ryan should read this someday with all e sacrifices made. goshh

i wanna know the gushy part !! and im lan surely is a good husband and dad.

summore, i hope i can make time 2 c u n ryan.

congrats again farmila. luv u :)

~f@R~ said...

love you too jucci mucci... nowdays rasa bersalah je selalu gaduh with my mum... hehehe

do come visit us soon ok darls... muackz...

nawal said...

far darling,congrats dear....such a prince u have...i always want a boy to complete my family...(only after nawal hits 2...then i'll consider)..u r always one amazing lady ..n u neva failed to prove tis...i envy u 4 such experience..though sgt takut...but caesarian is something close to scary jugak..huhu
p/s -nawal says HI to ryan

dana

~f@R~ said...

Hi Dana.. thanks... insyallah the next one kita tukar lak, u dapat boy and i want a girl to inherit my shoes and bags...hahaha...

Far pun nak wait Ryan besar skit baru try again... let nawal and ryan manja2 dulu :)

najwa said...

far ur one lucky girl..lan is a great dude seriously..aku susah nk puji orang tp aku terpaksa puji suami kau..seriously he better give some pointers to surey no matter wat..heheheh..anyway luv seeing ur baby..luv baby ryannnnnn..so hensem n cepat pusing2..cepat giler dah boleh pusing sendiri after 6 days..amazed..plz tell him abt me, da crazy fren of urs which u luv..buek!!!

Bads said...

Sigh. The sacrifices of a mother =)

I'm glad you're all okay now. Congratulations again, to you and Lan! I like reading stories of ppl giving birth and how they felt in the moment.

p/s my sister gave birth on 1st of Jan, by the time she got to the hospital, she was already 7cm =p she was in pain dari 3am to 7am at home cause my brother in law thought it was false alarm! lol.

now i have a nephew whom i call Kiddopotamus. haha.