*Shhhhhhhh*

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead

I love this song :p
A secret is very difficult to keep.
Especially the extra juicy ones
You can't help but go to the other person whispering
"swear you won't tell anyone"
Ironically 30 minutes after you made the same promise to someone else
Hahahaha....

The best solution? Just keep it to yourself
If people ask you later why they weren't inform in the first place the perfect answer would be...

I didn't tell you in the first place because I don't want you to know :p

Of Ryan and Nenek :p

I have the flu :( and I desperately wants to go home...

Ryan caught the flu from nenek, naturally it is passed to me. With all the food sharing, snot wiping etc. On top of his flu, his got one of his mild asthma attack when he was at home alone with Nenek on Friday while I was at work. My mum panicked (drama as always) and demanded that we go to the hospital first thing when I came home.

Upon checking his heart rate/breathing pattern etc I decided to give him his Ventolin instead and he was breathing better after that, but the flu prevented recovery. I can hear phlegm building up in his chest, so I decided to pump it out using his nasal aspirator and manually vomit it out of him (grossest thing ever but you got to do what you got to do). Ryan managed to sleep for 5 hours straight that night but was down with a mild fever on Monday so my dad and I brought him to his paed.

Nothing serious, upper tract was clear, no infection, breathing a bit rapid, so the doc and I discussed on putting Ryan on preventive medication to minimize further asthma attacks, on top of his normal Ventolin (used as a reliever during attacks) he's on Budesonide (a type of preventive inhaler for the next 3 months). His flu improved almost immediately but the effect of Budesonide for his asthma can only be seen after 3-4 weeks. Insyallah all will be well.

Anyway, I wanted to talk about my mum's reaction actually. She was on my case over my choice of medication, treatment etc. and it was driving me nuts. Since Lan is not around to back me up (biasalah when the menantu is around, my mum is more "PC" with her opinions :p) , my mum was bugging me to go to our normal GP for nebulizer (wth??), imparting all sorts of opinions from her colleagues on treatments etc (like I care what Dr si Ayu tu buat to her baby-whoever she is) and reprimanding me for my lack of shall I say "action" (I was a cool cucumber hehe

I love my mum but she tends to go overboard when it comes to Ryan and she take it so personally when I don't listen to her. I know she brought us up well and perfect (haha) but sometimes she just need to let me do my job. Macamla I will do anything to jeopardize Ryan's health.

I grow up with half of the family being asthmatic. My dad, my sis even I have mild asthma. I've seen my cousin turn blue when he was about 6 months old. If anything, I've learn a few very important thing from my aunt who was a doctor -THOU SHALL NOT PANIC, every child is different and do your own research.

I guess it is normal, every child is their parent's baby, and my mum is finding it hard to accept that her youngest daughter is a mum in her own right too. Maybe I'll be like this when my children are all grown up, who knows? I should be thankful that my mum cares enough, kan :p I know some grandparents won't even bother hehehe

I'm not complaining (not really hahaha) but I'm ecstatic that Lan is home today and I can go back to my own crib :p As for Ryan who dah "berlemak" duduk ngan atuk and nenek for 2 weeks, get ready to reenter the Azlan-Farhanna boot camp where bedtime is at 9pm and no such thing as endless Elmo/Cars marathon *hahaha evil laugh*

Wordless Wednesday #8

Ryan Reynolds

RyanGosling

Ryan Giggs

The Most Gorgoeus Ryan of them all : Muhammad Ryan Daniel :)Love you, 15 more minutes when I can rush home and give you a big HUG and loads kisses...

Does not even count as an update...

I should really update my blog,kan?

Despite loads of events happening in the past 2 weeks : Mother's Day, Graduation Day and My BIRTHDAY. It was ALL awesome *alhamdullilah* but I can't find the energy to post pictures + provide commentary on it. I'm just plain LAZY!!! plus Lan brought my laptop to his induction so I can't edit pics.(yes, hubby is going to be away for the next 10 days, so it's a bit depressing :p)

I know I owe this page pics + post on :
1. Lan's 30th Bday celebration
2. Family trip to PD
3. Convocation Day
4. My Birthday post :p

Will blog on it soon. I promise. Definitely.Maybe. We'll see :)

Getting It Right!!

I was watching Glee last night when the song came up...What can I say? I love the lyrics :) I know the circumstance for when "Rachel wrote the song to reflect her relationship with Finn" is not the same.. But that is the best thing about "words" - you can interpret it however you want :p

Trying to give/be/offer the best of you is a very tiring job, and when your best intentions does not turn out the way it should, it just became very frustrating. C'est La Vie :) Just gotto smile and bear with it...

Enjoy the lyrics...

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

CHORUS
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

CHORUS

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

Not So-Wordless Wednesday #7

Save the date: You're invited to the Royal Wedding viewing party at the Azlan-Farhanna household on 29/04/2011

Mummy and Baby Watching Royal Wedding together-gether

My little prince charming Heheh this is no Philip Treacy Fascinator but I kinda like it :p
Just the right "piece" for a RW observer

Of course he will copy EVERYTHING that I do.. hahahah

Of Answered Prayers with a Twist...

I’m kind of busy with work at the moment and to tell you the truth I’m not really in the mood to blog. Something has been bugging me for months and lately I’ve allowed myself to wallow in self pity. It totally triggered my BD PreProitis Smurfing Ephilitis symptoms (haha inside joke: p) funnily enough someone totally unexpected i.e. a male colleague of no importance, notices the change and confronted me about it in a jest. It got me thinking though, why should I feel sorry for myself?

I guess as human we always want things that we can’t have or not meant to have “yet”. I should just be more patient. Maybe it acts as a sign that I should start thinking of alternatives and not be scared to step out of my comfort zone. I realized that great things always happen when I go through a more “challenging” road. Faith is the key.

Yes, I’m rambling but who cares, insignificant toads (chewah) are not meant to understand this. Sorry but I just hate it when “strangers” pretended that they know me just by reading a few blog post a week.

Anyway enough with the negativity. I shall focus on the good things instead. I’m going to turn 28 next month and Alhamdullilah I’ve fulfilled 4/5 of my personal goals of the things I should do before turning 30. I should be thankful; I should be down on my knees performing sujud syukur all the time, for all of the things I’m blessed with

1. When I was 25 and newly engaged I dreamt of starting a family with Lan and now 3 years later I have a beautiful family with a loving husband and a gorgeous son. I also have great parent and in laws and also siblings who I can always depend on. What more can a girl ask for?
2. Lan and I managed to purchase our own house at a young age. Alhamdullilah should anything happen to us at least Ryan would have an asset to call his own. It is not much but it is ours :)
3. After 2 years of hard work, tears and grueling task of balancing between work, studies, marriage, pregnancy and a baby, I’m going to attend my convocation this May where I’ll be receiving a piece of paper stating that I’ve completed my Masters in Corporate Law. It wasn’t easy but I did it...
4. I’ve gone for my Umrah.

Some may view this list as a “braglist” but when I look at this list I feel ashamed for failing to feel thankful in the first place. This post shall act as a reminder of all of my answered prayers.

Speaking of answered prayers, one of the wishes I made during Umrah came true. Well it was an improved version of the wish, a bit unexpected but very much welcome nevertheless. The gift also came with a “test”. So I hope I can successfully endure it. Alhamdullilah and here’s to change :)

Consider this....

Character cannot be developed in ease & quiet. Only through experience of trial & suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, & success achieved.

Wordless Wednesday #6

Sneak preview to hubby's 30th B-day "party" on 17 April 2011

Umrah Trip (Final)

Ok my final Umrah post. This post is mostly on how an Umrah is perform :) When you go for your Umrah trip, you can actually perform your umrah more than once. Some people even managed to perform their umrah 3 times a day (such dedication and determination).

To me umrah is a very physical form of ibadah, as compared to prayers, fasting and zakat etc which I think is more spiritual in nature.You have to be mentally strong as well, having to brace the throngs of people, hot sun, etc. At the end of the day you'll learn one very important lesson which is PATIENCE

But now I understood why my parents was telling my sister and I to perform our haj as soon as we can. I guess they have a very good point, when you're younger the "rukuns" is physically easier for you to perform.

For example, on the day when we didn't bring Ryan along, we managed to finish our tawaf and saie within 1 1/2 hours. The older jemaah sometimes take close to 3-4 hours to finish the same course ( I know it is not a competition about who can finish first, I'm just making a comparison that when you are younger, tawaf/saie wouldn't be so challenging)

*Insyallah* once dah cukup duit we'll go ok, hubby :) Neways, there is 5 things that you need to do to complete your umrah:-

First: You have to Niat Umrah at a designated place (they called it Miqat) and the place has to be out of Tanah Haram (out of Mecca). You have to be in your ihram at this point (guys in white sheets and women in any attire covering aurat- though it is sunnat to wear white)The nearest place is in Masjid Tanaim (about 7 km away). You can reach there by taxi or vans.

Second: You have to complete 7 rounds of tawaf around kaabah. You can do it continuously or you can stop after each round (all depends on your capability) after finishing your tawaf you are to perform sembahyang sunnah preferable in front of Hijr Ismail.

Third: Saie. You have to make walk around Safa and Marwaa' Hills 7 times. Again do it at your own pace while reading the designated doa.

Fourth: Tahallul. Jemaah must cut a bit of their hair to complete your umrah (some guys will shave all their hair off) and after that you'll be out of Ihram

Fifth: You must do everything in order.

Lan and Ryan in their ihram

@Tanaim mosque

Tawaf around Kaabah

Safa' & Marwaa' Hills- Saie

*Alhamdullilah* Finally done with sharing all of our experience in Mecca and Madinah. *insyaallah* panjang umur and with opportunity would LOVE to visit again :)

BaBy ClaSsEs : KiaSu MumS GeN Y :)

*taking a break from umrah post*

Ryan’s Gym.boree(GB) class is ending, and we’re trying to figure out if we should continue with his classes. Ryan has been going for G.B since he was 3 months old, now, he’s up to Stage 3 in play class and he’s in Stage 1 music class.

I love the instructors, classes are interactive equip with great set ups and I think Ryan is able to make a lot of friends there. My only problem is I think Ryan has kind of outgrown the play class. He started early on his Stage 2 so he has been spending every week on the same play gym for the past 8 months. I can’t blame him for being bored.

We have just started on the music class, which pretty much is a dancing class + instrument playing (mostly maracas and tambourine) and a bit of singing (on the mother’s part mostly) Truth be told I find the class a tad boring. We pretty much do the dancing + singing part bit at home every night. On teaching him to play instruments, well after going for 12 years of music classes, I’m more than qualified to teach Ryan myself (or my mum would tell you that :p)

I was told that the art programme is really good but Ryan can only join it in 3 months time when he turns 18 months. So do I reassigned him NOW for the play + music class or do I take him out and later rejoin the art class or find some other center for his classes? But then again ART CLASSES?? I think I got that area more than covered (yes masuk bakul moment)

Decisions…decisions… The fact that I’m LAZY to drive all the way to Bangsar at 8.30am on a Saturday morning is also influencing my decision to not go ahead with GB at the moment and the RM2K yearly fees. Since I’m not impressed with Tum.ble Tots and Kid.Sportz curriculum I think I shall keep on looking for other alternative for the time being.

Maybe I should save the money, buy Ryan the play gyms set which ranges from RM200-RM500, put it in my garden and invite his cousins to come play with him. Hahaha and I will have RM1.5K left to buy shoes.

Anyways I’ve bought him some new books and flashcards for his “classes” at home. We started reading before he goes to bed and before going to school every morning. This morning he made me read the same book twice. And I will be introducing him to the PlayDoh that Imran got him for his birthday *yes finally* (before this takut dia makan haha)

So baby, bye bye Gymbo (at least for da moment) and hello "teacher mummy" and "headmaster daddy" :p

P/S: if you know of any Playgym or toddler classes around Subang, Shah Alam and Klang do drop me a comment ok.

PP/S: I’m thinking of organizing a playgroup for toddlers among friends maybe once a month where both mummy + babies can socialize + main2 for an hour or so. Rasa2 ada yang interested ke nak join? plan je la bila nak buat pun tak sure lagi...