Friday, March 16, 2012
R.E.V.A.M.P
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Happy 3rd Anniversary, Baby!

Time flies, right? seems like yesterday when we were choosing our wedding ring :) Fast forward 3 years later we have created so much of new happy memories together: Like spending our honeymoon in Bali, giving birth to Ryan, celebrating his first birthday, our Umrah trip :), finding out we're pregnant with twins and meeting Iman and Ranya for the first time. I can't wait to create more memories with you *insyallah*
Along the way we've encountered several obstacles but with your patience + practicality and my "creative" problem solving we seem to be able to work it out TOGETHER. Don't think I could have done it all without you. I thank Allah for pairing us up as husband and wife ;) 3 years and 3 children later, I still love you as I did on the day we got married - maybe so much more. 3 months being at home full time and spending all those time with you makes me realize how it feels to fall in love all over again :) Thanks for everything.
I love you very very much. Don't you dare forget that or take it for granted ;p hehehehe
Breather...
Work is starting next week. Can't say I'm jumping for joy but since there is no alternative options for the time being, I'm gonna TRY to stay positive. 11 more months until my scholarship contract expires and I'll be a free lil birdie to pursue more interesting prospects. All in good time :)
Anyway Iman and Ranya's Aqiqah went well. We received positive feedbacks on the food, deco and desserts :) I'm so happy as I did 80% of the planning and execution on my own. Lan and I was toying with the idea of hiring an event planner at first but after much discussion we decided that lil bossy me shall take charge. Take charge I did and though I was overwhelmed with the planning + taking care of zee household with help from our family everything turned out great in the end though we received close to unexpected 200 guests :D
Hmmm I wanted to post the pictures from the event but I can't seem to find the right USB cable for my DSLR. Maybe I'll do it tonight or tomorrow. Going to enjoy the remaining of my break and not dread Monday.Anyway Ryan is at home so gonna go cuddle up with him in front of the TV.
*sigh* Gonna miss spending time with my lil family so much. No more impromptu afternoon lunches with hubby, breakfast outings with Ryan or spending the whole day with Iman and Ranya singing "wheels on the bus".Oh well QUALITY time is more important kan, we have nights, early mornings and weekends to spend time and make great memories together. I shall NOT be negative and depressing about this.
~LOVE LOVE LOVE ~
Friday, February 24, 2012
A Day Out With My Lil Man
Later we spent the remaining time before picking up adik cuddling in front of the TV :D I don't know about you Ryan, but mummy had so much fun... Love you cheeky cheeks :p
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Sama Tak Serupa :)
Physically for non identical twins Iman and Ranya looks quite similar. In the middle of the night when I'm sleepy and mamai, I can't be ask to tell the difference :p but if you look closely Iman features are slightly rounder. Iman is also slightly bigger though Ranya is catching up real fast. It also helps that Ranya has a strawberry mark on her tummy, so if people gets too confused, we'll just flip open her clothes hahaha
It is quite funny because people at home are always confused over who's who. This is where wearing different coloured clothing comes in handy but a day won't be completed without someone calling Iman - Ranya or vice versa.
It may seem like a trivial thing, but identifying which twin is which is quite important for feeding time (you don't want to be feeding the same twin twice) or at times when we have to administer medicine. So me the "mandur" would need to be on top of things all the time.
To help the carers at the daycare to identify the twins I got Iman and Ranya customise bracelets . It is just a simple string bracelet with beads spelling their name. Cute and comfortable with no allergy triggers. Very important elements while choosing baby accessories.
The twins are also different temperament wise. Iman is more lemah lembut and manja while Ranya is the more active twin. Lan told me once that if he want to differentiate the twin lying side by side he'll just see the hands movement. The girl who's more animated is more likely to be Ranya :)
The process of getting to know the girls better is the same as it is with other babies. The only difference is I have to learned about two babies at once. The main challenge is despite looking similar they are two separate individuals with different preference. I can't wait when the girls are a bit older and are able to choose their own favourite food and clothes. That would be a fun battle to fight :p hehehehe
Next post: Funday with Ryan :p (bilalah nak find the time to blog ni, I'm actually typing this post via BB while brestfeeding Iman at the same time)
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Mode: Separation Anxiety
Today is Iman and Ranya's second day in "skool". After much discussion with Lan, my mum and the twins second main day caretaker which is my dad :p We've decided that the girls would be going to the same daycare as Ryan.
I'm planning on an extended no-pay 30 days maternity leave, which I have no idea whether it has been approve yet ;p if it is indeed approve (pray to Allah that it will) I'm planning to rotate taking care of each child alone with me a week. For example : Monday with Iman, Wednesday with Ranya and Friday with Ryan. So each kid will have quality time with mummy.
Lan and I are slowly getting the groove of being a parent of 3 children. The main challenge is trying to meet the needs of Iman and Ranya while making sure that Ryan does not feel left out. Sometimes I feel really horrible because I know that no matter how Lan and I try to be the best parents to our kids something will still fall short.
The best example I can give you is this, Iman HATES to be bottle fed be it EBM or formula so when I'm with her she will insist on direct feeding, which really sucks for Ranya because she will have less time with me. I'm lucky that my youngest baby is quite understanding as she will drink milk from the bottle with less fuss, however there are times when Ranya needs attention the same time when I'm tending to Iman. The worst part is if they only want comfort from ME despite having 3-5 other adults at home, so one starts crying and the other will start screaming too. When all this is happening, sometimes I admit Ryan will be sidelined since everyone aim is to make sure that the twins will stop crying. so that is when the 3rd tantrum from Ryan will start. So i end making all 3 unhappy, which is kinda depressing if you think about it
I do try not to dwell on things I can't change. My main aim is to give my children the best and going all bipolar about things will not help anyone. Of course there's going to be shortcomings on my part, I expect a lot of things to get harder before things get easier : triple expenses, triple pain and sufferings, triple fever and sleepless nights, triple snot sucking, triple bedtime tantrums etc but at the same time I've been blessed with three gorgeous kids who can made my day with their smiles, incoherent gurgles and the most adorable antics.
When things get really tough and I think I can't go on, I try to remind myself that Allah will not test someone beyond their capabilities and when I was in Mecca I remember ending each prayer for Allah to give me what he thinks is best for me even if that is not what I initially wanted, so if my creator have given me the very best, who am I to question his faith in me. Anyway, nothing that is truly worth it comes easy,right?
Ok since tengah mode jiwang (or more like separation anxiety) I would like to dedicate this para from the song Sedetik Lebih to my 3 munckins. For some reason everytime I listen to the song it totally reminded me of them...
"Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu
Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu
Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa
Kasihku ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya"
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Ryan Turns TWO :)
Occasion: Ryan's 2nd Birthday

The celebration was pretty minimal this year but that does not make it any less special :) Mummy loves you very much and you are in my prayers every single second of the day. May you grow up to be a soleh, responsible,loving, intelligent, handsome young man and please be a good brother to your sisters. Ya Allah please bless my son with love, health and happiness always *insyallah*
Currently, I know you may feel a bit "threatened" having to compete for attention with two new babies at once but please be assured that you'll always be my favourite baby boy. You're very special sweetheart that is why Allah choose to give you twin sisters because he knows you have so much love in your heart :) Not everyone is as lucky.
Mummy and daddy sayang you infinity ok Muhammad Ryan Daniel :)
The birthday tidbits for Ryan's classmates. Yummy chocolate covered Oreos courtesy of Daddy. Love the Cars and Upin and Ipin edible images
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Iman Khadeeja & Ranya Fatimah
Seems like yesterday when my water broke a day earlier than my planned c-section schedule. It was 745am and I just woke up. Unlike most people I wasn't really confused about whether it was urine or amniotic fluid because the fluid wasn't trickling out, it was GUSHING when I stood up from the bed :p I guess double the baby = double the fluid.
I called my mum to tell her, after which Lan and I rushed out in a fury to get my hospital bag (which thankfully was pack the night before) drop by my parents house to hug Ryan (who was devastated he had to stay home) and sped to SDMC, Subang.
I was pretty lucky that it was a public holiday for Selangor so Lan was home, morning traffic was also pretty clear so we managed to arrive at the hospital in 15 minutes. The contractions started every 10 minutes when I was in the car and I managed it via breathing techniques (or whatever I remembered from Ryan's class 2 years ago :p). Since we did our pre-admission earlier, we went straight to the labour ward.
Hehe the nurse looked a bit shocked when I stride in announcing that my water broke and I'm expecting twins. Seperti biasa muka sardine :p There was a flurry of activities after that. When the nurses check at around 9am-ish I was already 6cm dilated (after less than 2 hours) too bad wasn't able to deliver normally or it would have been a very quick labour. Anyway had to go through the labour pain for 2 hours without gas/painkillers etc because I had to wait for the anaesthetists to administer the drug before the procedure.
I was wheeled in the preparatory operation room around 10am. Lan was able to accompany me up till that point only. The anaesthetist came in to explain "stuff". Thank god I already know my choices because I don't know how I would have been able to make the decision with the pain being so strong at that point.
After signing the agreement form, it was time to go into the operation theatre. Had to say goodbye to my husband at that point, so that was pretty sucky having to go through the process alone this time around :( ie no one to scream abuses to haha :p
Thank god the nurses, anaesthetist and Dr D was in good cheer. Everyone was joking around so I was able to keep myself calm. The anaesthetist inserted the anaesthetic thingy at the base of my spine, the process wasn't painful but a bit uncomfortable. He commented that I'm pretty calm compared to most ladies having to go through an emergency surgery, I just smiled and said "Nothing much I can do about it, right ?" And Dr D was like " dia memang macam tu, ok je all the time"
After 2-3 minutes the docs checked whether I've started feeling numb, I told them I can't feel the pain no more, so they take it as a YES and Doc D told me she's gonna cut a small section and please tell her if I feel any pain (I can't see anything as they put a screen between my chest and belly). After that I felt a lot of tugging and pulling but no pain. 10 minutes passed when I hear the sweet sound of the baby crying :) the ever so cheery anaesthetist (whom I can't remember his name for the life of me) practically shouted " it's a girl" :) Two more minutes of tugging, another cry joined the room and I was told " you got another baby girl and they are perfect :)"
The nurses cleaned the babies up and did the whole Apgar testing and when they are done, showed the two babies to me. Unlike Ryan's birth I wasn't able to hold and nurse them immediately because I was still on the operating table getting sewn back up :p at the same time I was told by the paediatrician that she had to rushed the younger twin to the nursery to be put under the warmer as she's a bit small and wasn't able to regulate her temperature on her own.
The process of getting me stitched back up is longer than the "cutting" process, anyway I learned more about my dear gynea and her love for designer bags especially "Hermes" and how she bought her 4 kids a BMW each haha. Jealous mak :p. Everything was all done by 11am and I was put under observation for 30mins before being wheeled back to my room.
Anyway seeing Lan waiting outside the OT was such a relieved :p we had to wait for a bit before they send "kakak" to us. Adik wasn't warmed out enough so we had to wait even longer.
I had a bit of a scare when I started bleeding heavily 2 hours after the surgery. I remember telling Lan that I felt clammy and uncomfortable and maybe we should ask the nurses to changed the sheets. When the nurse came in, she was shocked to see I was soaked in blood from waist to toe. They administer some pitocin, massage blood clots out of me and I was given some painkiller. I remembered feeling drowsy as hell but refusing to sleep until I get to see both my girls.
We were in the hospital for 4 days 3 night. Had to stay a day extra because my kakak had a bad case of jaundice. Alhamdullilah her birubilin level decreases after a few rounds of phototheraphy, so we were cleared to leave the next day.
So far my journey taking care of the girls who Lan and I decided to name Iman Khadeeja and Ranya Fatimah has been pretty smooth. Alhamdullilah :) of course it is a bit of a challenge taking care of 2 newborns and a very jealous 2 year old but we've managed so far with the help of my parents, sister and a whole load of patience. Mr Azlan is really taking his role as daddy anak 3 fantastically :) so lucky to have him around (buek he made me write this)
More on the progress of Ryan, Iman and Ranya once I get the time to blog on my lappie and not the BB like I'm doing now (should spend less time online shopping haha)
I can't believe I'm a mother of 3 at 28 hahaha